semiosis
the process of signification in language or literature.
semiosis
the process of signification in language or literature.
preaching an inherent unity that allows him to claim the suffering of others as his own.
this feels selfish. like he can be the only person to actually suffer in the world, like the trauma olympics where he needs to one up everyone
complete and inescapable human depravity
hmm....
Wadsworth
I kinda love middle names that just sounds both old and kinda odd
inherent good in humanity
maybe not inherent good, bad people can do good things but it doesn't make them good people inherently
transcendentalist
People, men and women equally, have knowledge about themselves and the world around them that "transcends" or goes beyond what they can see, hear, taste, touch or feel.
And as to you Corpse I think you are good manure, but that does not offend me,
corpses do make pretty good fertilizer, anything dead really, plant or animal
I know perfectly well my own egotism,
at least you acknowledge it
infold
turn or fold inward; invaginate, or if old enfold - shroud, surround
Formless stacks of bodies and bodies by themselves, dabs of flesh upon the masts and spars,
I'm grimacing
I turn the bridegroom out of bed and stay with the bride myself, I tighten her all night to my thighs and lips.
STOP SAYING THIS SHIT
bivouac
a temporary camp without tents or cover, used especially by soldiers or mountaineers.
leaves
so many lines start with the same words, same
Even as I stand or sit passing faster than you.
are in in a car?
In vain
that's a lot of "in vain"s
scrofula
a condition in which the bacteria that causes tuberculosis causes symptoms outside the lungs
kosmos
???
I exist as I am, that is enough,
good fucking quote
august
respected and impressive.
deathless
everyone is deathless until they die
what am I?
that is what I'm asking
Do I astonish more than they?
are you asking to be complemented and put upon a pedestal for the person you are talking to
touch of my lips to yours, this the murmur of yearning
once again, i don't need to hear about your lust or romantic moments
There shall be no difference between them and the rest.
everyone is the same in your eyes but you've given yourself some mythical powered status. are you pretending to be jesus right her with his acceptance of those society doesn't
venerealee
one with a venereal disease
If they are not yours as much as mine they are nothing, or next to nothing,
thoughts have meaning so long as they're shared?
I resist any thing better than my own diversity, Breathe the air but leave plenty after me, And am not stuck up, and am in my place.
i take no more than what i need, i don't demand more and accept what i'm given
Kanadian
is this how Canadian used to be spelled?
A Southerner soon as a Northerner,
and so the listing continues
wife
my brain switches off when I have to read a long list of people doing things the way he describes them
song of myself.
roll credits (Cinema Sins)
half-shut eyes bent sideways,
suspicious gaze
half-breed
too much focus on percentages of white vs BIPOC
quadroon
a person who is one-quarter black by descent.
What is removed drops horribly in a pail;
gross
asylum
not great places
Ya-honk
i love this
And the look of the bay mare shames silliness out of me.
the look in her eyes or just the appearance of the horse? do you think the horse is literally judging you?
environ
encircle, surround
The rest did not see her, but she saw them and loved them.
is she a ghost? or is this "them" a reference to the 29th bather or is that bather her?
homeliest
unattractive
Which of the young men does she like the best?
she has her choice of men
Yankee clipper
a reference to the great sailing ship.
scud
to move or run swiftly especially as if driven forward clouds scudding across the sky.
Falling asleep on the gather’d leaves with my dog and gun by my side.
are each of these different people?
I am there, I help, I came stretch’d atop of the load, I felt its soft jolts, one leg reclined on the other, I jump from the cross-beams and seize the clover and timothy, And roll head over heels and tangle my hair full of wisps.
i don't know why but my brain pictures a fairy. I also don't know how he's describing himself anymore besides some mythical being
The suicide sprawls on the bloody floor of the bedroom, I witness the corpse with its dabbled hair, I note where the pistol has fallen.
O.O are you pretending to be god? looking down upon all these different people
I hasten to inform him or her it is just as lucky to die, and I know it.
yup
Has any one supposed it lucky to be born?
....not particularly. depends on the era and what family you are born into.
The smallest sprout shows there is really no death,
sort of like a rebirth into plants or how energy from the sun passes through plants to animals to people and back to animals and plants
beautiful uncut hair of graves.
kinda macabre in a not unpretty way
How could I answer the child?
children ask a lot of questions, you won't always know an answer to it
kelson
a centerline structure running the length of a ship and fastening the transverse members of the floor to the keel below. The backbone
And that all the men ever born are also my brothers, and the women my sisters and lovers,
all is family under god
my feet.
why are you telling us about a romantic encounter you had, why should we care about someone tonguing you from stomach to bear and holding your feet
abase
behave in a way that belittles or degrades (someone).
I have no mockings or arguments, I witness and wait.
looking back on the past, hindsight
fratricidal
i had to read this word three times before I finally understood what it said.
Clear and sweet is my soul, and clear and sweet is all that is not my soul. Lack one lacks both, and the unseen is proved by the seen, Till that becomes unseen and receives proof in its turn.
yin and yang hang in the balance to create substance
entretied
vertical
life
continuous growth, always creating
now
stagnation of growth, all you see or know is how it is?
You shall no longer take things at second or third hand, nor look through the eyes of the dead, nor feed on the spectres in books, You shall not look through my eyes either, nor take things from me, You shall listen to all sides and filter them from your self.
death of the authorish
Have you practis’d so long to learn to read? Have you felt so proud to get at the meaning of poems?
yes and kind of, sometimes
The smoke of my own breath,
everyone likes to pretend they are dragons
I will go to the bank by the wood and become undisguised and naked, I am mad for it to be in contact with me.
get naked by the woods...just experiencing the air? Nudist?
distillation
the extraction of the essential meaning or most important aspects of something.
no concentrated scent
abeyance
a state of temporary disuse or suspension.
thirty-seven years
for half a second i though it was about to say seven and thirty years
Born here of parents born here from parents the same, and their parents the same,
multigenerational land
loafe
to be lazy or existing aimlessly with a sinister intent
I CELEBRATE myself,
positive self esteem, good
At home I dream that at Naples, at Rome, I can be intoxicated with beauty, and lose my sadness. I pack my trunk, embrace my friends, embark on the sea, and at last wake up in Naples, and there beside me is the stern fact, the sad self, unrelenting, identical, that I fled from.
I cannot sell my liberty and my power, to save their sensibility.
do not destroy yourself for the sake of others
I must be myself. I cannot break myself any longer for you, or you. If you can love me for what I am, we shall be the happier. If you cannot, I will still seek to deserve that you should. I will not hide my tastes or aversions.
yep, sounds good
But your isolation must not be mechanical, but spiritual, that is, must be elevation
see yourself as better than and above everyone else
prate
talk foolishly or at tedious length about something.
‘I think,’ ‘I am,’
"I think, therefore I am"
mendicant
given to begging
equipage
ARCHAIC the equipment for a particular purpose.
HISTORICAL a carriage and horses with attendants.
I do not wish to please him; I wish that he should wish to please me
are you going to show him any curtesy or civility while you wish for his willingness to please you?
To be great is to be misunderstood.
to be misunderstood gets you killed generally, especially in the past
hobgoblin
brain went to: "What is this goblin mutant creature?" "That's muh wee lad, Gimli"
Do I not know beforehand that not possibly can he say a new and spontaneous word?
i'm tired enough that this sentence made no sense and some sense at the same time but mostly nonsense with the wording.
you will always find those who think they know what is your duty better than you know it
yeah
live
live guilt free and for himself and not for the views of others
expiate
atone for (guilt or sin).
Then, again, do not tell me, as a good man did to-day, of my obligation to put all poor men in good situations. Are they my poor?
does not care for the poor, "they should have worked harder to live like I do"
truth is handsomer than the affectation of love. Your goodness must have some edge to it, — else it is none. The doctrine of hatred must be preached as the counteraction of the doctrine of love when that pules and whines.
true enough, it's how I felt reading Benito Cereno
I am ashamed to think how easily we capitulate to badges and names, to large societies and dead institutions
okay, feeling like a "just because all these doctors said this doesn't mean they're telling the truth just my cousin told me about this doctor who say that all these studies were wrong"
the only wrong what is against it
my way or the highway isn't that great of a mindset
Good and bad are but names very readily transferable to that or this
good and bad are subjective to the viewer
Whoso would be a man must be a nonconformist
so everyone who conforms to the ideas that society formed and pushed onto them are not "a man" or is it more of a not a "person"
bread
brain says lets get this bread
He would utter opinions on all passing affairs, which being seen to be not private, but necessary, would sink like darts into the ear of men, and put them in fear.
speak up about issues to make then heard by others.
eclat
brilliant display or effect.
Do not think the youth has no force, because he cannot speak to you and me. Hark! in the next room his voice is sufficiently clear and emphatic. It seems he knows how to speak to his contemporaries. Bashful or bold, then, he will know how to make us seniors very unnecessary.
giving the vibe of Millennials will talk and plead and march to change the world but Gen z will set fire to things and punch authority figures to make changes
Their mind being whole, their eye is as yet unconquered, and when we look in their faces, we are disconcerted.
a young mind is blank to suffering and hatred and adults cant really stand it
be- haviour
the fact that this is split up is weird looking to me
the absolutely trustworthy
are you going to be talking about trust in yourself because god is always inside you through this while thing which feels too long to read given i read and annotated a Melville novella for several hours yesterday
none but he knows what that is which he can do, nor does he know until he has tried
good saying, you never now until you try
imitation is suicide
and yet many movies and book follow the same pattern to the point of predictability and still gain massive followings and earnings
we shall be forced to take with shame our own opinion from another.
people don't always trust their ideas when a more dominant voice says the opposite, we believe we are wrong even if the topic is subjective
Yet he dismisses without notice his thought, because it is his. In every work of genius we recognize our own rejected thoughts: they come back to us with a certain alienated majesty.
we reject our own thoughts of things in deference of a "knowledgeable source"
firmament
the heavens or the sky, especially when regarded as a tangible thing.
trumpets of the Last Judgment
i'm not religious but are these Gabriel's trumpets? or am i thinking of another angel. I vaguely remember a judgement movie with trumpets and souls being stolen from bodies and weird demon things
that is genius.
is it really? thoughts are subjective and what one person might think can be harmful to another
Ne te quaesiveris extra.
Do not seek outside yourself, look within
you thought me so morose and ungrateful, nay, when, as you now admit, you half thought me plotting your murder, at those very times my heart was frozen
same dude. I was sure you were going to try and get him killed. I was right about mutiny but wrong about the mutineers
noble Captain Amasa Delano
honorable enough, to keep the prisoners from being killed after the battle was already over for a time.
but his intent, though undiscovered, being suspected, he was, on a pretense, made to retire out of sight, and at last into the hold, and there was made away with
the knot guy? "tied up, trapped, set us free quickly"
Don Francisco Masa
there are too many names to follow, this was one of the people originally on the ship before mutiny yeah?
the negro Babo proposed to him to gain from Amasa Delano full particulars about his ship, and crew, and arms
asking for information about defenses is suspicious and you shouldn't answer
the act of handing a quadrant, they killed him
hasty
Christopher Colon, the discoverer of the New World
Colon?
deponent
a person who makes a deposition or affidavit under oath. (Benito)
Babo had intimated to him several times, that he would kill all the whites the very moment he should perceive any city, town, or settlement of any kind on the shores to which they should be carried
aggressive, effective
replied to him he must carry them in any way
he didn't care tot he condition of the boat, just do it anyway
* *
how do I still have a fifth to go through....
mulatto
offensive
assailants
are the assailants the ones with guns or the mutineers?
had secretly put out of order the locks of what few muskets there were.
took away the chance of firearms they had, leaving only melee weapons behind
‘Tis he, Aranda! my murdered, unburied friend!”
hmmm....okay
Not Captain Delano, but Don Benito, the black, in leaping into the boat, had intended to stab.
to incite something or just being done with this sick man
still Don Benito would not let go his hand
are you going to throw him off the boat, pull him in and threaten him, what?
unwonted energy
unusual energy
Once again he smiled at the phantoms which had mocked him, and felt something like a tinge of remorse, that, by harboring them even for a moment, he should, by implication, have betrayed an atheist doubt of the ever-watchful Providence above.
if alarm bells sound at least three times to your dumb, prideful brain, maybe listen to them and stop brushing them off like a girl infatuated with someone who is essentially a red flag
Well, thought Captain Delano, if he has little breeding, the more need to show mine.
his pride feels like his downfall. this entire scheme has been one big fucking red flag that this idiot ignored
Upon this, unperceived by the American, the two blacks eyed the sailor intently.
yeh
He inquired how it was that the scurvy and fever should have committed such wholesale havoc upon the whites, while destroying less than half of the blacks. As if this question reproduced the whole scene of plague before the Spaniard’s
a mutiny in all probability
stood behind, not his master’s chair, but Captain Delano’s.
not good
See, Don Amasa, master always shakes when I shave him. And yet master knows I never yet have drawn blood, though it’s true, if master will shake so, I may some of these times.
sounds like a threat
“Then if master means to talk more to Don Amasa,” said the servant, “why not let Don Amasa sit by master in the cuddy, and master can talk, and Don Amasa can listen, while Babo here lathers and strops.”
i swear delano, if you don't leave this very instant, you're an idiot and i'm not going to be surprised if you do sit with him
Who would murder Amasa Delano?
anyone with a will to do so
he was engaged there maturing his plot, of which the sailor, by some means gaining an inkling, had a mind to warn the stranger against; incited, it may be, by gratitude for a kind word on first boarding the ship.
never trust a bunch of strangers
uncivilized women, they seemed at once tender of heart and tough of constitution; equally ready to die for their infants or fight for them.
"uncivilized" debatable, subjective
For the rest, whatever in a serious way seemed enigmatical, was now good-naturedly explained away by the thought that, for the most part, the poor invalid scarcely knew what he was about; either sulking in black vapors, or putting idle questions without sense or object.
yeah, the invalid may be not great at anything but you are still surrounded by 150 men you don't know and youve told them that you only have 25 men and a bunch of weapons and silks and that some of your men are not on the boat because they're fishing, as though it makes a difference to 150 strange men
Above all, he began to feel a ghostly dread of Don Benito.

humble curiosity, turned openly up into his master’s downcast one. The Spaniard, still with a guilty shuffle, repeated his question:
is the servant the actual master?
“Canton.” “And there, Señor, you exchanged your sealskins for teas and silks, I think you said?” “Yes, Silks, mostly.”
pirate questions. he's probably going to steal all your shit
fangs
now is when Delano finally fucking learns to be cautious of strangers
a coil of rope in his hand
you gonna try and hang delano. is this a pirate situation?
valetudinarian
a person who is unduly anxious about their health.
Somewhat annoyed by these conversational familiarities, Captain Delano turned curiously upon the attendant, then glanced inquiringly at his master
doesn't like a black man speaking to him like a familiar
An iron collar was about his neck, from which depended a chain, thrice wound round his body; the terminating links padlocked together at a broad band of iron, his girdle.
....big man, dangerous man
a man I loved
"are you gay? a-are you gay?" tiktok sound
late friend
was this man part of the ship crew that died, died before the ship set out, hmm?
hatchet-polishers, where, in spots, it had been brought to a shine, “this seems a curious business they are at, Don Benito?”
are they going to pirate delano's ship?
“What posts they fill, I appointed them,” rejoined the Spaniard, in an acrid tone
"stop judging me, you're getting on my nerves"
paper captains
figurehead, a puppet government
merely the sport of the lad.
a boys will be boys statement?
Suddenly, one of the black boys, enraged at a word dropped by one of his white companions, seized a knife, and, though called to forbear by one of the oakum-pickers, struck the lad over the head, inflicting a gash from which blood flowed.
oof, okay. what was said i wonder
punctilio
a fine or petty point of conduct or procedure.
the hatchets had anything but an attractive look, and the handlers of them still less so
rude
small, yellow hands
jaundice or is this some vaguely racist description of skin tone?
Faithful fellow!” cried Captain Delano. “Don Benito, I envy you such a friend; slave I cannot call him.
exceptions make the world go round. "oh i disapprove of this except for in the case of that."
their owner
two hundred and fifty approximately, if my math is somewhat okay then again I only vaguely remember a mention of fifty Spaniards, to one owner wow
their owner
singular owner? were they all bought for one person or is he just not using a plural
Like a man lost in woods, more than once she had doubled upon her own track.
be it a sea or a forest, it's easy to get lost and turned around when surrounded by more of the same
scanty
scanty, not scant?
sultry
ah yes, calm waters are sexy but calm waters above does not mean calm waters below
were become
old phrasing
His cough returned and with increased violence; this subsiding; with reddened lips
TB?
his cough
mata
????
spar
a thick, strong pole such as is used for a mast or yard on a ship.
a hundred and fifty, as you see, but then numbering over three hundred souls
about half died
somnambulist
he really likes big words, sleepwalker
But plucking up courage, he at last accosted Don Benito, renewing the expression of his benevolent interest, adding, that did he (Captain Delano) but know the particulars of the ship’s misfortunes, he would, perhaps, be better able in the end to relieve them. Would Don Benito favor him with the whole story.
i just realized that Melville and I have something i common, we don't like to have actual dialogue in our stories or at least not tons of it
loth
reluctant; unwilling.
the blacks
....please stop saying this but i know you won't
the absence of those subordinate deck-officers to whom, along with higher duties,
they're probably the ones who died to scurvy and fever
himself
so many descriptions so little story. we get to "know" the character but do we really care or remember much beyond this guy spoke little, is ill in some way, and hates everyone but his helper.
conscientious policy, more or less adopted by all commanders of large ships, which, except in signal emergencies, obliterates alike the manifestation of sway with every trace of sociality; transforming the man into a block, or rather into a loaded cannon, which, until there is call for thunder, has nothing to say.
man of few words
unhealthy climax
(as childish as it is) lol
evinced
reveal the presence of (a quality or feeling).
involuntary victim of mental disorder
hmmm
At bottom it was Don Benito’s reserve which displeased him; but the same reserve was shown towards all but his faithful personal attendant.
is it more or just trust?
whom prolonged physical suffering seems to cancel every social instinct of kindness
I mean yeah, if i was in constant agonizing pain and starving, I would stop caring about being rude AF
Don Benito’s unfriendly indifference towards himself
as in Benito's distain for Delano or himself? writing like this isn't always clear to me.
Babo
so the spaniards helper is named Babo? Babo means foolish in Korean or at least it's slang for it
Marking the noisy indocility of the blacks in general
generalization
Sometimes the negro gave his master his arm, or took his handkerchief out of his pocket for him; performing these and similar offices with that affectionate zeal which transmutes into something filial or fraternal acts in themselves but menial; and which has gained for the negro the repute of making the most pleasing body-servant in the world; one, too, whom a master need be on no stiffly superior terms with, but may treat with familiar trust; less a servant than a devoted companion.
someone to lean on without much distrust
His mind appeared unstrung, if not still more seriously affected
the Spaniard is losing it due to the hardships of starvations and dehydration and loss of some authority
nothing more relaxes good order than misery
yeah
saturnine
(of a person or their manner) slow and gloomy.
traces of recent sleepless cares and disquietudes
all are sick and tired
with scores less conspicuous, rested but an instant upon them
alert but reclined?
All six, unlike the generality, had the raw aspect of unsophisticated Africans.
pretty rude, unsurprising
barbarous
why do all of these stories include this word?
poop
probably just the poop deck, but this just makes it sound like there is actual feces
oakum
preparation of tarred fibre used to seal gaps
scurvy
eat some oranges
dolorous
feeling or expressing great sorrow or distress.
negresses
is this a feminine plural?
conglobated
to form into a round compact mass.
hull
this boat description makes me think of the Black Pearl and Davy Jones's ship even though the descriptions aren't the same, it's just because it is a ship in disrepair
uppermost and central of which was a dark satyr in a mask, holding his foot on the prostrate neck of a writhing figure, likewise masked.
an image of vaguely anonymous cruelty
somnambulistic
ism - sleepwalking
However, no guns were seen.
slave ship carrying other cargo is shitty with no defensive weapons visible