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  1. Oct 2021
    1. preaching an inherent unity that allows him to claim the suffering of others as his own.

      this feels selfish. like he can be the only person to actually suffer in the world, like the trauma olympics where he needs to one up everyone

    2. transcendentalist

      People, men and women equally, have knowledge about themselves and the world around them that "transcends" or goes beyond what they can see, hear, taste, touch or feel.

    1. And as to you Corpse I think you are good manure, but that does not offend me,

      corpses do make pretty good fertilizer, anything dead really, plant or animal

    2. There shall be no difference between them and the rest.

      everyone is the same in your eyes but you've given yourself some mythical powered status. are you pretending to be jesus right her with his acceptance of those society doesn't

    3. I resist any thing better than my own diversity, Breathe the air but leave plenty after me, And am not stuck up, and am in my place.

      i take no more than what i need, i don't demand more and accept what i'm given

    4. And the look of the bay mare shames silliness out of me.

      the look in her eyes or just the appearance of the horse? do you think the horse is literally judging you?

    5. I am there, I help, I came stretch’d atop of the load, I felt its soft jolts, one leg reclined on the other, I jump from the cross-beams and seize the clover and timothy, And roll head over heels and tangle my hair full of wisps.

      i don't know why but my brain pictures a fairy. I also don't know how he's describing himself anymore besides some mythical being

    6. The suicide sprawls on the bloody floor of the bedroom, I witness the corpse with its dabbled hair, I note where the pistol has fallen.

      O.O are you pretending to be god? looking down upon all these different people

    7. The smallest sprout shows there is really no death,

      sort of like a rebirth into plants or how energy from the sun passes through plants to animals to people and back to animals and plants

    8. my feet.

      why are you telling us about a romantic encounter you had, why should we care about someone tonguing you from stomach to bear and holding your feet

    9. Clear and sweet is my soul, and clear and sweet is all that is not my soul. Lack one lacks both, and the unseen is proved by the seen, Till that becomes unseen and receives proof in its turn.

      yin and yang hang in the balance to create substance

    10. You shall no longer take things at second or third hand, nor look through the eyes of the dead, nor feed on the spectres in books, You shall not look through my eyes either, nor take things from me, You shall listen to all sides and filter them from your self.

      death of the authorish

    11. I will go to the bank by the wood and become undisguised and naked, I am mad for it to be in contact with me.

      get naked by the woods...just experiencing the air? Nudist?

    1. At home I dream that at Naples, at Rome, I can be intoxicated with beauty, and lose my sadness. I pack my trunk, embrace my friends, embark on the sea, and at last wake up in Naples, and there beside me is the stern fact, the sad self, unrelenting, identical, that I fled from.

      starts around 1:19 to 1:38

    2. I must be myself. I cannot break myself any longer for you, or you. If you can love me for what I am, we shall be the happier. If you cannot, I will still seek to deserve that you should. I will not hide my tastes or aversions.

      yep, sounds good

    3. I do not wish to please him; I wish that he should wish to please me

      are you going to show him any curtesy or civility while you wish for his willingness to please you?

    4. Do I not know beforehand that not possibly can he say a new and spontaneous word?

      i'm tired enough that this sentence made no sense and some sense at the same time but mostly nonsense with the wording.

    5. Then, again, do not tell me, as a good man did to-day, of my obligation to put all poor men in good situations. Are they my poor?

      does not care for the poor, "they should have worked harder to live like I do"

    6. truth is handsomer than the affectation of love. Your goodness must have some edge to it, — else it is none. The doctrine of hatred must be preached as the counteraction of the doctrine of love when that pules and whines.

      true enough, it's how I felt reading Benito Cereno

    7. I am ashamed to think how easily we capitulate to badges and names, to large societies and dead institutions

      okay, feeling like a "just because all these doctors said this doesn't mean they're telling the truth just my cousin told me about this doctor who say that all these studies were wrong"

    8. Whoso would be a man must be a nonconformist

      so everyone who conforms to the ideas that society formed and pushed onto them are not "a man" or is it more of a not a "person"

    9. He would utter opinions on all passing affairs, which being seen to be not private, but necessary, would sink like darts into the ear of men, and put them in fear.

      speak up about issues to make then heard by others.

    10. Do not think the youth has no force, because he cannot speak to you and me. Hark! in the next room his voice is sufficiently clear and emphatic. It seems he knows how to speak to his contemporaries. Bashful or bold, then, he will know how to make us seniors very unnecessary.

      giving the vibe of Millennials will talk and plead and march to change the world but Gen z will set fire to things and punch authority figures to make changes

    11. Their mind being whole, their eye is as yet unconquered, and when we look in their faces, we are disconcerted.

      a young mind is blank to suffering and hatred and adults cant really stand it

    12. the absolutely trustworthy

      are you going to be talking about trust in yourself because god is always inside you through this while thing which feels too long to read given i read and annotated a Melville novella for several hours yesterday

    13. we shall be forced to take with shame our own opinion from another.

      people don't always trust their ideas when a more dominant voice says the opposite, we believe we are wrong even if the topic is subjective

    14. Yet he dismisses without notice his thought, because it is his. In every work of genius we recognize our own rejected thoughts: they come back to us with a certain alienated majesty.

      we reject our own thoughts of things in deference of a "knowledgeable source"

    15. trumpets of the Last Judgment

      i'm not religious but are these Gabriel's trumpets? or am i thinking of another angel. I vaguely remember a judgement movie with trumpets and souls being stolen from bodies and weird demon things

    1. you thought me so morose and ungrateful, nay, when, as you now admit, you half thought me plotting your murder, at those very times my heart was frozen

      same dude. I was sure you were going to try and get him killed. I was right about mutiny but wrong about the mutineers

    2. but his intent, though undiscovered, being suspected, he was, on a pretense, made to retire out of sight, and at last into the hold, and there was made away with

      the knot guy? "tied up, trapped, set us free quickly"

    3. the negro Babo proposed to him to gain from Amasa Delano full particulars about his ship, and crew, and arms

      asking for information about defenses is suspicious and you shouldn't answer

    4. Babo had intimated to him several times, that he would kill all the whites the very moment he should perceive any city, town, or settlement of any kind on the shores to which they should be carried

      aggressive, effective

    5. Once again he smiled at the phantoms which had mocked him, and felt something like a tinge of remorse, that, by harboring them even for a moment, he should, by implication, have betrayed an atheist doubt of the ever-watchful Providence above.

      if alarm bells sound at least three times to your dumb, prideful brain, maybe listen to them and stop brushing them off like a girl infatuated with someone who is essentially a red flag

    6. Well, thought Captain Delano, if he has little breeding, the more need to show mine.

      his pride feels like his downfall. this entire scheme has been one big fucking red flag that this idiot ignored

    7. He inquired how it was that the scurvy and fever should have committed such wholesale havoc upon the whites, while destroying less than half of the blacks. As if this question reproduced the whole scene of plague before the Spaniard’s

      a mutiny in all probability

    8. See, Don Amasa, master always shakes when I shave him. And yet master knows I never yet have drawn blood, though it’s true, if master will shake so, I may some of these times.

      sounds like a threat

    9. “Then if master means to talk more to Don Amasa,” said the servant, “why not let Don Amasa sit by master in the cuddy, and master can talk, and Don Amasa can listen, while Babo here lathers and strops.”

      i swear delano, if you don't leave this very instant, you're an idiot and i'm not going to be surprised if you do sit with him

    10. he was engaged there maturing his plot, of which the sailor, by some means gaining an inkling, had a mind to warn the stranger against; incited, it may be, by gratitude for a kind word on first boarding the ship.

      never trust a bunch of strangers

    11. uncivilized women, they seemed at once tender of heart and tough of constitution; equally ready to die for their infants or fight for them.

      "uncivilized" debatable, subjective

    12. For the rest, whatever in a serious way seemed enigmatical, was now good-naturedly explained away by the thought that, for the most part, the poor invalid scarcely knew what he was about; either sulking in black vapors, or putting idle questions without sense or object.

      yeah, the invalid may be not great at anything but you are still surrounded by 150 men you don't know and youve told them that you only have 25 men and a bunch of weapons and silks and that some of your men are not on the boat because they're fishing, as though it makes a difference to 150 strange men

    13. humble curiosity, turned openly up into his master’s downcast one. The Spaniard, still with a guilty shuffle, repeated his question:

      is the servant the actual master?

    14. “Canton.” “And there, Señor, you exchanged your sealskins for teas and silks, I think you said?” “Yes, Silks, mostly.”

      pirate questions. he's probably going to steal all your shit

    15. Somewhat annoyed by these conversational familiarities, Captain Delano turned curiously upon the attendant, then glanced inquiringly at his master

      doesn't like a black man speaking to him like a familiar

    16. An iron collar was about his neck, from which depended a chain, thrice wound round his body; the terminating links padlocked together at a broad band of iron, his girdle.

      ....big man, dangerous man

    17. hatchet-polishers, where, in spots, it had been brought to a shine, “this seems a curious business they are at, Don Benito?”

      are they going to pirate delano's ship?

    18. Suddenly, one of the black boys, enraged at a word dropped by one of his white companions, seized a knife, and, though called to forbear by one of the oakum-pickers, struck the lad over the head, inflicting a gash from which blood flowed.

      oof, okay. what was said i wonder

    19. Faithful fellow!” cried Captain Delano. “Don Benito, I envy you such a friend; slave I cannot call him.

      exceptions make the world go round. "oh i disapprove of this except for in the case of that."

    20. their owner

      two hundred and fifty approximately, if my math is somewhat okay then again I only vaguely remember a mention of fifty Spaniards, to one owner wow

    21. Like a man lost in woods, more than once she had doubled upon her own track.

      be it a sea or a forest, it's easy to get lost and turned around when surrounded by more of the same

    22. But plucking up courage, he at last accosted Don Benito, renewing the expression of his benevolent interest, adding, that did he (Captain Delano) but know the particulars of the ship’s misfortunes, he would, perhaps, be better able in the end to relieve them. Would Don Benito favor him with the whole story.

      i just realized that Melville and I have something i common, we don't like to have actual dialogue in our stories or at least not tons of it

    23. himself

      so many descriptions so little story. we get to "know" the character but do we really care or remember much beyond this guy spoke little, is ill in some way, and hates everyone but his helper.

    24. conscientious policy, more or less adopted by all commanders of large ships, which, except in signal emergencies, obliterates alike the manifestation of sway with every trace of sociality; transforming the man into a block, or rather into a loaded cannon, which, until there is call for thunder, has nothing to say.

      man of few words

    25. At bottom it was Don Benito’s reserve which displeased him; but the same reserve was shown towards all but his faithful personal attendant.

      is it more or just trust?

    26. whom prolonged physical suffering seems to cancel every social instinct of kindness

      I mean yeah, if i was in constant agonizing pain and starving, I would stop caring about being rude AF

    27. Sometimes the negro gave his master his arm, or took his handkerchief out of his pocket for him; performing these and similar offices with that affectionate zeal which transmutes into something filial or fraternal acts in themselves but menial; and which has gained for the negro the repute of making the most pleasing body-servant in the world; one, too, whom a master need be on no stiffly superior terms with, but may treat with familiar trust; less a servant than a devoted companion.

      someone to lean on without much distrust

    28. His mind appeared unstrung, if not still more seriously affected

      the Spaniard is losing it due to the hardships of starvations and dehydration and loss of some authority

    29. hull

      this boat description makes me think of the Black Pearl and Davy Jones's ship even though the descriptions aren't the same, it's just because it is a ship in disrepair

    30. uppermost and central of which was a dark satyr in a mask, holding his foot on the prostrate neck of a writhing figure, likewise masked.

      an image of vaguely anonymous cruelty