Some of my most productive pauses are destructive ones that are part of the path toward creating. For example, I get to teach a composition class of 24 with more than half of my students being Saudi. I have always had international students in my classes. My department head says it is because I am a softie. That is not a compliment in the unholy land of 'rigor'. So this class gives me great pause. How the fuck can I rise to this challenge? I think I have to break a great many sacred pedagogical icons along the way, but I don't know for sure how to go about it. Knowing political conditions in Saudi Arabia right now, a 'rigorous' approach might will be an indirect death sentence. Now that gives me pause.