This experience reminds me of The Autobiography of an Ex-Colored Man by James Weldon Johnson. He relates "And so i have often lived through that hour, that day, that week in which was wrought the miracle of my transition from one world into another; for I did indeed pass into another world. From that time I looked out through other eyes, my thoughts were colored, my words dictated, my actions limited by one dominating all pervading idea...".
Here, Johnson is stating that even as a young boy he realized that his experience is filtered through "the distorted influence which operates upon each colored man in the United States"