43 Matching Annotations
  1. Sep 2022
    1. I don’t like to look out of the windows even—there are so many of those creeping women

      There’s more than one?

    2. It does not do to trust people too much.

      Neither do I

    3. It is the same woman, I know, for she is always creeping, and most women do not creep by daylight

      Is she a real woman?

    4. Then in the very bright spots she keeps still, and in the very shady spots she just takes hold of the bars and shakes them hard

      Is this comparable to her being more saint in the night time than the day time?

    5. it makes me dizzy

      Or crazy

    6. In the daytime it is tiresome and perplexing

      Is she too stimulated?

    7. asked me why I should frighten her so

      Jennie doesn’t want her reading or writing either?

    8. He seems very queer sometimes

      Queer in what sense?

    9. the woman

      The woman behind it? Herself?

    10. Really, dear, you are better!”

      I don’t know who to believe

    11. because he is so wise, and because he loves me so

      Does he really?

    12. the baby is well and happy

      They have a baby together?

    13. And I know John would think it absurd. But I must say what I feel and think in some way—it is such a relief

      This is her only way to let things out

    14. debased Romanesque” with delirium tremens

      ???

    15. It is as good as gymnastics, I assure you

      Not sure what she means

    16. Weir Mitchell

      Where/what is that?

    17. I must not let her find me writing

      Why not?

    18. Then the floor is scratched and gouged and splintered, the plaster itself is dug out here and there, and this great heavy bed, which is all we found in the room, looks as if it had been through the wars.

      Why has no one taken care of it?

    19. children have made here

      Children from previous tenants? What happened to them?

    20. I never saw so much expression in an inanimate thing before, and we all know how much expression they have!

      She could be referring to herself too

    21. So I try

      John is being a killjoy

    22. It does weigh on me so not to do my duty in any way

      That’s how I feel when I am nervous

    23. I am glad my case is not serious

      Maybe they should separate if they can’t stand each other?

    24. they suddenly commit suicide

      Such a strong example

    25. Your exercise depends on your strength, my dear

      Wouldn’t us be crazy if she was a patient in a mental hospital and made herself believe that John is her husband?

    26. and that makes me very tired

      She’s exhausted from trying to fix herself

    27. draught

      Gaslighting?

    28. I believe, something about the heirs and co-heirs

      Someone is trying to inherit it?

    29. for there are hedges and walls and gates that lock, and lots of separate little houses for the gardeners and people

      Sounds beautiful!

    30. So I will let it alone and talk about the house

      She is trying to refocus herself and take John’s advice

    31. John says the very worst thing I can do is to think about my condition

      How can you fix it if you don’t talk about it?

    32. my condition

      Is depression her condition? What exactly is it?

    33. having to be so sly about it,

      Writing is more than a hobby, maybe a secret obsession or indulgence

    34. am absolutely forbidden to “work” until I am well again

      How would they determine this?

    35. that there is really nothing the matter with one but temporary nervous depression

      Is he gaslighting her or does she really need help? An internal struggle for sure

    36. he does not believe I am sick!

      Maybe this is also why she doesn’t believe fate is on her side (as said earlier).

    37. but this is dead paper and a great relief to my mind

      This person finds comfort in writing or journaling

    38. He has no patience with faith, an intense horror of superstition, and he scoffs openly at any talk of things not to be felt and seen and put down in figures

      Could you consider John a “doubting Thomas?” He doesn’t believe it unless he sees it

    39. marriage

      Someone in a marriage is narrating this

    40. Else, why should it be let so cheaply? And why have stood so long untenanted?

      They are questioning why no one would want this place

    41. queer

      Queer meaning happy? As a synonym to gay?

    42. but that would be asking too much of fate

      They don’t believe fate is on their side

    43. ancestral halls

      Maybe something like a vacation home?