The portion of some is to have their afflictions by drops, now one drop and then another; but the dregs of the cup, the wine of astonishment, like a sweeping rain that leaveth no food, did the Lord prepare to be my portion.
thats really interesting! she sees life as a balance of happiness and afflictions (good and bad), if you don't get the bad in little pieces here and there in your life you're gonna get it in one big chunk sometime in your life.