“As I mourn for my husband, I realize the toll he has taken on me. However, I will start from the beginning.<br>
Joseph… well, Jodie. Everyone loves to call him that. It makes me cringe when I hear that name in any sort of conversation. Even uttering it myself goes against every value I was brought up with. I feel like it fuels his ego, up and up the gauge goes until it goes into the unknown realm of numbers. How many tanks does he need to burst? Lash out, scream, or relax and take it all in, what he has created. What has he created? Mayor of a town, sure, but he has created an unstable woman that isn’t sure about her next moves in life purely for his bad emotional habits. The minute I laid eyes on him, I was wrapped around his big, grotesque finger. I think he completely manipulated me from the very beginning, and knew that I was so desperate to start something new that I didn’t even notice it. That was the biggest mistake of all. I wonder what he needed me for… what he needed to boost himself to ruin me at the same time? I think he was going to go for as long as possible to try and play his little game with everyone, even you all, and get to the “top.” At this point, there is no top. We are all in this small town, many of us having nothing bigger coming for them, and will spend generations living here. Don’t you want to go out and do something else? Something that’s good for yourself? As I live here, I feel trapped. Possibly, this is purely because of him. I am sure that I would not feel trapped if I chose to live here on my own, living by my own standards and my own morals rather than being tugged on like a marionette in the window of a toy store. Some of you were puppets to Joseph, doing what he says with no say in if you wanted it or not. The humility that followed… that was the worst of all.
And so I stand in front of you all saying one thing confidently. I am happy that Jodie is dead so I can live again.”
Janie set down her pen. The ink seemed to jump out of it. She touched the tip; hot with the fury inside of her. She sat there, veil on her hair draping down to her back, reading what she had written over and over. She was asked, of course, to write something for Jodie's funeral, but when she was honest with herself, she knew there was nothing more vile than to lie and commemorate him on the things he did that hurt her the most.
She picked up the paper, crumpled it up, and threw it into the trash.