But never thought I would have the need, as I do now, for a darker one:
It sounds like letting this time slip away really has been the most painful thing she's ever let happen. Boland says she has never had to use speech so dark.
But never thought I would have the need, as I do now, for a darker one:
It sounds like letting this time slip away really has been the most painful thing she's ever let happen. Boland says she has never had to use speech so dark.
pain, which returns hurts, stings
The words she uses show the strong regret she feels not having paid enough attention to her young daughter.
She was gone. Grown
I think what Boland is writing about here is that she's not literally gone. But, she no longer that child that use to be so eager to head out on Sunday with her. She follows this with, "Grown." Her daughter has grown up now. Moved on.
Sasha hesitated. She and Coz had talked at length about why she kept the stolen objects separate from the rest of her life: because using them would imply greed or self-interest, because leaving them untouched made it seem as if she might one day give them back, because piling them in a heap kept their power from leaking away.
We learn that Sasha doesn't steal things to use them.
“Please,” she told Coz. “Don’t ask me how I feel.”
Again, she does not want to open up. Sasha is disconnected from the world and herself. She steals meaningful items from other people to try and fill her life with meaning.
We don't know exactly how her father plays into her feelings, but i think its safe to assume there's some connection there.
And maybe that’s true. Maybe someone gave it to me years ago, and I forgot.
"I believe in you" is such a powerful phrase. Whomever wrote that to Alex had a serious connection with him. This idea goes back to the contrasting characters. It also ties back into Sasha stealing items with meaning. It also ties back with the idea that Sasha is filling some void with the stolen items.
Sasha's father is only mentioned for a brief sentence but maybe her father leaving her at a young age caused her to feel the way she does.
because piling them in a heap kept their power from leaking away.
Their power, I think the author is talking about their meaning/significance
Alex, drawn to the sight of him taking everything in.
So she was turned on after stealing the wallet. Then when she gave it back the mood was killed. Then, Alex looks at all of her stolen stuff and she's turned on by it again.
he pens, the binoculars, the keys, the child’s scarf,
What meaning could these things have? Are they symbolic?
But she didn’t turn.
I think the author is trying to say that there's a part of Sasha that wants to see a hidden, old, her. Or maybe there is a hidden problem inside her.
She didn't turn to look though. This totally plays back into the idea that Sasha can't connect with anyone, herself included.
Sasha glanced at Alex. He was angry, and the anger made him recognizable in a way that an hour of aimless chatter (mostly hers, it was true) had not: he was new to New York. He came from someplace smaller. He had a thing or two to prove about how people should treat one another.
This scene provides good contrast between the characters. Alex is a very caring person. He is actively trying to get this woman wallet back, he cares about her.
Sasha does not seem to care much, almost lacks the ability, to care about other people.
But in that direction lay only sorrow.
Something bad happened with Sasha and her father? She says she doesn't remember him 'for their protection'.
How did she feel? How did she feel? There was a right answer, of course. At times, Sasha had to fight the urge to lie simply as a way of depriving Coz of it. “Bad,” she said. “O.K.? I felt bad. Shit, I’m bankrupting myself to pay for you—obviously I get that this isn’t a great way to live.”
Sasha has a really hard time opening up, connecting, and showing her true self. She lies about her age on her dating profile, she doesn't have the ability to care the people she steals from, she's totally lost connection with everything she used to care about, and now she doesn't show her feelings to her therapist
Sasha felt herself contract around the object in a single yawn of appetite; she needed to hold the screwdriver, just for a minute.
We learned that she likes to steal objects with meaning. So what meaning does the screwdriver appear to have?
She smiled her yes/no smile: remote yet flirtatious, quizzical yet penetrating, a smile she could muster only at certain lucky times. “Hello,” she said.
Stealing the wallet was arousing for her, sexually.
taking the wallet was a way for Sasha to assert her toughness, her individuality
What causes her to want to do this???? This is a really odd way to show your individuality.
“Like any screwdriver.”
It turned out not to be that meaningful of an object.
relief from the pain of having an old soft-backed man snuffling under her tub
Why is this a painful experience for her?
start caring again about the things that had once guided her: music, the network of friends she’d made when she first came to New York, a set of goals she’d scrawled on a big sheet of newsprint and taped to the walls of her early apartments. Find a band to manage
We learn she's lost touch with the things that used to mean a lot to her. Goals, work, friends, ect. She's pretty much lost touch with the world.
What caused this?
Her kleptomania is how she copes.
Sasha tipped back her head to look at him. She made a point of doing this now and then, just to remind Coz that she wasn’t an idiot—she knew that the question had a right answer.
She doesn't seem to feel bad about how it makes other people feel when she steals their belongings.
(yet another)
She dates a lot of people apparently.
Sasha never took anything from stores—their cold, inert goods didn’t tempt her. Only from people.
We see that Sasha does not steal from stores bc those items are "inert". By inert the author means devoid of meaning. Items in a store have no value to another person. But, personal belongings do have meaning. This is why Sasha steals from people. Why does she only steal items with meaning? To fill a void of her own?
“Not a church,” the boy corrected. “14 Ware Street, built 1950, originally domestic property, situated on a floodplain, condemned for safety. Site of ‘St. Jude’s’—local, outlier congregation. Has no official status.”
He thinks so objectively. While it may not be officially recognized as a church, these people consider it to be THEIR church. She lives there and just told him it was a church... This is another example of how Bill is out of touch with non factual reality.
Zadie Smith, “MEET THE PRESIDENT!” New Yorker, Aug. 12 & 19, 2003.
The .PDF on blackboard includes a cover picture for "Meet The President". We can learn a great deal about how the local and the elites are portrayed in this story form the cover.
First, you may notice the girl in the back. This is Aggie. In the story there is a scene where Aggie and Bill are walking to her sisters 'laying out'. Aggie is dressed in this Puritan, 1600's, style attire. Not very high end; her people, the locals, obviously do not have a lot of money. But I think the most important thing to notice is, she is human.
Bill on the other hand is shown as an abstract/intangible person. No physical features other than his outline. He's walking on water. He's not being portrayed as human, or maybe not as human as Aggie.
In one voice, like a great beast moaning. A single craft carrying the right hardware could take out the lot of them, but they seemed to have no fear of that.
Now we know that Aggie's people get killed by the drones when they do not behave the way they are supposed to.
something about a successful inspection
What were they inspecting?
Because I do not hope to turn again . . . Because I do not hope . . .
"I do not hope to turn again". Was this group of people once part of Bill's tech/VR society, maybe they defected?
If you can’t move, you’re no one from nowhere. ‘Capital must flow.’ ” (This last was the motto of his school, though she needn’t know that.)
At his school they tell the kids to travel. Maybe this ties back into the beginning half of the story where the narrator tells us that Bill liked to discuss with members of other chapters where it was best to augment?
“As our students reach tenth grade they begin to gain insight into the great human mysteries of this world, and a special sympathy for locals, the poor, ideologues, and all those who have chosen to limit their own human capital in ways that it can be difficult at times for us to comprehend.”)
Bill's society is totally lost. Their idea of human capital has nothing to do with relations to other people. We've seen how Bill is incapable of interacting with other people. He is totally unable to think about or feel emotion towards others.
Bill Peek raised his eyes to the encampment on the hill, pretending to follow with great interest those dozen circling, diving craft, as if he, uniquely, as the child of personnel, had nothing to fear from them.
An encampment is defined as a temporary saying place, sometimes for troops. I think the encampment is where Bill and his people are stationed. They are doing something with the people of the island and we know this because he says they are feared.
“Course, he’d have to be somebody, Aggs, cos they don’t give ’em to nobody”
Melinda's response shows us that the headset he is wearing is something that the superiors wear and that they are in a way viewed as inferior to Bill by society.
Yet, mad am I not
Actually crazy though.