live through the present moment by holding onto anorexia
because living in the present moment w/o an exteriorization of the psychological and emotional anguish/turmoil inside is too unbearable—physical pain is cathartic in that way?
also, if restriction is moralized and thinness is valorized as the ideal aesthetic for health and desirability, positive affect may result from the embodied practice of ED-related beliefs —> positive reinforcement as it ameliorates cognitive and emotional hardship