Everyone has soul connections. Everyone has a person they can build and grow with. Everyone also has what is called "toxic soulmates". These are connections you are drawn to for all the wrong reasons. They fulfill every dark shadow you unconsciously deny. They represent everything in you that has turned black and cold. As much as you know it is toxic, you cant turn away cause this connection is the only one that makes you feel "like this". It is the only way you can currently feel love, through your toxic soulmate. But sometimes through will, determination and lots of gentle reflection you will begin to notice your toxic soulmate is the opposite of what you need in every way. Your toxic soulmate is intoxicating, but also drains you of all your love and light. This person was meant to come into your life to test the worst parts of you. And at the end of this toxic relationship it will feel like you are dying. You will feel there is nothing good left cause your toxic soulmate has taken everything you built around them. But what is left? An empty shell. You dont even know who you are without this toxicity to tell you how to feel. And then the magic happens. You realize you are not an empty shell, but you are LIKE an empty shell. With so much room for love and light. You begin to realize your toxic soulmate never respected you or your boundaries. They never treated you with care and gentle compassion. They didnt actually give you any of the things you needed to grow. You realize this toxicity was a blessing in disguise. And there, broken and confused, you see them. Your person. Your real soulmate. And it's so terrifying and you never want to try again but you do, and when you do the most beautiful thing happens. You laugh. Your soulmate can feel your warmth through your smile. You feel safe for the first time in so long, protected. You begin to notice every day this person does little things to make your day. And even though you are starting to use your own light, your healthy soulmate connection is there as a backup in case your light goes dark. There is no judgement, there is no keeping track of wattage consumption, and they won't throw it back in your face later on. Cause they know. Cause they had time with their own toxic soulmates. And in this beautiful new dynamic you will start to dance. You will step over your own feet cause you're not used to having a partner in sync with you. As you learn the moves together, you look into this person's eyes and all you see if pure love and light. You feel connected through energy. You know now that you can grow with this person, safely, at your own pace. You know now you can be your best self with this person, not because they inspire you at your best but cause they can inspire you at your worst, and without judgement. To find this person, this healthy soulmate connection, is not rare, we are simply caught up in our toxic soulmates to notice that a flower cannot grow in the darkness. You can't see what a rose looks like unless it has been nourished with sunlight and water. It is an amazing gift to meet your soulmate connections. To learn from them. Just know, if you love someone "to death" but you cannot grow in yourself or the relationship, it's either the wrong time or it could be a toxic soulmate teaching you what you DON'T want in a partner. These relationships have its course and they're very powerful, but they aren't meant to be lifelong relationships. They aren't meant to keep you in the same suffering position you're entire life. You are meant to take all the time you need to learn, and then take those lessons and build a beautiful life around yourself and make sure to cultivate a space for a healthy partner and the boundaries and qualities you seek. It is not too much to ask to be spoken to with kindness, it is not too much to ask for help around the house. It's not too much to want to be held. Your healthy soulmate already knows what you need, and your toxic soulmate will keep pushing you towards your continued path until you accept the lessons and be open to the healing side. - I wrote this on my page and thought it might be a good read for others. Hope you're all staying safe and healthy