Seven: Art is a time and travel machine.
History and art are laying in the same bed but just on different sides of it. At times they come together, at times they stand a lone, and for other times, they dance together beautifully.
Seven: Art is a time and travel machine.
History and art are laying in the same bed but just on different sides of it. At times they come together, at times they stand a lone, and for other times, they dance together beautifully.
Mozart
Mozart and others that have created compositions of music wrote pieces that did not have any words but rather invoked emotion and attention that created dialogue within us.
Six: Can art make us smarter?
Art can have the ability to make us think so deeply and critically about things.
Five: Art can move us.
I believe in order to be swayed, we must have the desire to be because being moved is such an intrinsic part of us.
human beings: birth, death, procreation, falling in and out of love.
Birth, death, procreation, falling in and out of love...all of these things are feelings, emotions, and experiences that make us all indulge in the human experience.
In any case, it is neither the responsibility nor the purpose of art to make us better human beings.
Responsibility....wow. It's true, an artist can have a lot of sway and dictation on things but we don't all have the same effect on every human.
Hitler
As strange as this may sound, Hitler is certainly someone that I always reference when thinking of art. His actions were unmoral and unjust, however, it was his intentions and rationality behind things that portrayed his artistry. The perfect lines that German soldiers had to walk in, the way that he saw beauty in blond hair and blue eyes, the style of execution that he fancied....all such terrible acts but when it comes to style and aesthetics, Hitler was extremely precise and particular about the details.
I've always hoped that someone would fund a research project to measure the changes that occur in our brain waves when we lose ourselves in a book.
I would give anything to observe this shift. As someone who is an avid reader, books have the ability to create art that can take us to a new place mentally. There is so much power in art.
I mean something less aesthetic and moral and more neurological: the shock
Here I saw dendrites and axons energized and structured, firing signals to us as the viewer.
Two: Art can shock us.
Art is quite literally mind-blowing.
"A desolate boredom settled over everything. The warm days are over." Why should that seem beautiful?
Because of the exposure to art, we are able to use things like imagery that is painted through words. Here we see the desolation and we are visually explaining why someone could or could not see this as beautiful.
order, harmony, structure
Earlier cultures like the Greeks could seemingly see beyond the surface of things. Language in general has almost been boxed and caged because of the rudimentary way that humans have been using this. Language is simply dying out because of how basic we as humans have evolved when it comes to communication. Art relies heavily on language because art is something that is frequently critiqued and assessed. From those assessments, opinions, and thoughts need to be formed to generate a conveyance of what is meant and what is perceived. The fact that the Greeks could see a word and know that there were many variations of that word shows a higher level of thinking and seeing.
Perhaps it would be possible to know nothing about art, to have never seen a painting, and to look at any one of those works and think, Well, that is really gorgeous.
Who is actually qualified to know what art truly is? It goes beyond a degree and it is my belief that it is our own experiences that allow us to formulate our own beliefs, ideas, and intentions surrounding art.
Perhaps it would be possible to know nothing about art, to have never seen a painting, and to look at any one of those works and think, Well, that is really gorgeous
Art is amazing in this way. Without any exposure, we humans can see beauty in things and have perspective shifts. "Art" is something that can almost be deemed as anything.
Critics and philosophers have devoted their entire lives to defining beauty, while artists have pursued it from another part of the brain.
I love this sentence and it was so stimulating to read because of the perspective. I do love the way that art can interact with different parts of our brain and invoke a response from them.
But what do we mean by beauty?
What comes up here is beauty is in the eye of the beholder. It's perspective that can be shifted hence why the term "beauty" has so many different definitions and meanings.
One: Art can be beautiful.
I adore the way that this piece started out by acknowledging some of the integrity of art, which includes its beauty.
It annoyed me to hear my father's teasing: that I would never know what "real work" is; that my hands were so soft.
I've heard this so often throughout my life growing up. The toxic way that the males in my family were raised and having soft hands meant that you didn't have a real job. Simply absurd.
But I will not glorify those aspects of my culture which have injured me and which have injured me in the name of protecting me.
I DON'T BUY IT EITHER
No, I do not buy all the myths of the tribe into which I was born.
SAME! Some of us could smell the bullshit associated with certain ideologies.
I am a turtle, where I go I carry “home” on my back.
YES! Quite literally. This invokes a feeling of familiarity but a feeling of instability.
being a victim and transferring the blame on culture, mother, father, ex-lover, friend, absolves me of responsibility)
Oooo, "transferring the blame". I like where this thought is going however my saying is although it is not our fault, it is our responsibility to find a resolution for peace.
white culture,
White culture will never be safe because it strips us of everything that we are all and aspire to be. It forces us to conform while stealing our heritage and culture to be white washed and used as their own.
The world is not a safe place to live in
Absolutely not.
one that continually slips in and out of the white, the Catholic, the Mexican, the indigenous, the instincts.
That slippery slope is to me considered code-switching and many use this to their advantage OR society decides where one resides.
Being lesbian and raised Catholic, indoctrinated as straight, I made the choice to be queer (for some it is genetically inherent).
I'm pretty sure their writing utensil or keyboard had flames coming from it once they finished writing this. "Indoctrinated as straight" is one of the deepest things I've seen and felt in a while and it's also t-shirt worthy.
The queer are the mirror refl ecting the heterosexual tribe’s fear: being different, being other and therefore less, therefore subhuman, in-human, non-human.
HELL YES!! We wear these differences with honor and with great bravery because in the opposite direction of conformity is joy.
Women are at the bottom of the ladder one rung above the deviants.
I felt this line in my uterus. We will continue to be at the bottom of the ladder but more specifically, women of color are probably below the deviants.
Which was it to be—strong, or submissive, rebellious or conforming?
RIGHT! Because damned if I do or damned if I don't. From a societal perspective, women don't win.
Mothers made sure we didn’t walk into a room of brothers or fathers or uncles in nightgowns or shorts. We were never alone with men, not even those of our own family.
The relationship between my father and I are a bit strained because of this and my mother's ideology around men and what women "should" wear or do around them. I had both parents growing up but to her things like sitting on my father's lap were a taboo so inappropriate that I got spanked anytime I would do so. I could never kiss my dad on the mouth or anywhere close to it without having to hear a nagging story about how I was wrong. At some point my father and I stopped showing each other affection to keep down any confusion or just to keep my mother quiet. I often think how this is affecting other father, daughter, uncle, niece relationships.
Woman is the stranger, the other.
THE OTHER! THIS IS GOLDEN! This is precisely why I like to state that I'm a queer, black, woman. Because in every instance of my world and identity, I am the other.
Culture and religion seek to protect us from these two forces. The female, by virtue of creating entities of fl esh and blood in her stomach (she bleeds every month but does not die), by virtue of being in tune with nature’s cycles, is feared.
The female cycle is a powerful thing and is not to be played with. Not only is it something that is magical (in my culture, creole, some practicing voodooers use period blood for their work), our periods are a very sacred time for us to be with ourselves for rest, restoration, and reflection.
only the nun can escape motherhood.
"To fuck or not to fuck..that is the question"
My quote above is just as dramatic as this. Either we bear children or we cut ourselves off from the act of sex and surrender ourselves to a God that most people consider to be a "him". This still shows the sexism that exist in our culture, even in forms of religion.
The culture expects women to show greater acceptance of, and commitment to, the value system than men. The culture and the Church insist that women are subservient to males. If a woman rebels she is a mujer mala. If a woman doesn’t renounce herself in favor of the male, she is selfish. If a woman remains a virgen until she marries, she is a good woman. For a woman of my culture there used to be only three directions she could turn: to the church as a nun, to the streets as a prostitute, or to the home as a mother. Today some of us have a fourth choice: entering the world by way of education and career and becoming self-autonomous persons. A very few of us. As a working-class people our chief activity is to put food in our mouths, a roof over our heads, and clothes on our backs. Educating our children is out of reach for most of us. Educated or not, the onus is still on woman to be a wife/mother—only the nun can escape motherhood. Women are made to feel total failures if they don’t marry and have children. “¿Y cuándo te casas, Gloria? Se te va a parsar el tren.” Y yo les digo, “Pos si me caso, no va ser con un hombre.” Se quedan calladitas. Sí, soy hija de la Chingada. I’ve always been her daughter. No ‘tés chingando.
This entire section's argument is fallacious for the women that are queer. We are not serving the opposite sex in any way, shape, or form and these ideas diminish any self-worth and self-value that we as human beings were made to have.
f a woman remains a virgen until she marries, she is a good woman.
We should be free to have autonomy over our bodies without shame or guilt.
mujer mala
Nasty woman. Another form of slut shaming that has and will go on for the rest of time unless something revolutionary happens.
The culture expects women to show greater acceptance of, and commitment to, the value system than men.
"commitment to the value system than men"
.....I've gotten chills from reading this. this is such a peculiar notion.
for being hociconas (big mouths), for being callajeras (going to visit and gossip with neighbors),
Chisme. But this very chisme is what has formed bonds, and communities, and brought people together. This goes to show that there are views that women should be forever dedicated and in service to their husbands for the rest of their lives while leaving their dreams and aspirations behind.
How many times have I heard mothers and mothers-in-law tell their sons to beat their wives for not obeying them,
Obey. We MUST obey as if we are animals given commands. These are generational curses that most go unlearned so that we can stop the cycle.
Males make the rules and laws; women transmit them.
Oh what a sexist society that we live in but the gag is that how does any human physically come into the world? Through the portal of a woman.
"Hey, Greaser!
Oof, this made me shudder. These derogatory phrases still slice so deeply.
I had finally come face to face with los pobres.
"Los pobres"...I do think the author was having a full circle moment here but I would love to see an alternate ending here.
It refuses to take orders from my conscious will, it threatens the sovereignty of my rulership
This sentence is precisely why I'm going into law..."the sovereignty of my rulership" what a magnetic thing to say.
At a very early age I had a strong sense of who I was and what I was about and what was fair. I had a stubborn will. It tried constantly to mobilize my soul under my own regime, to live life on my own terms no matter how unsuitable to others they were. Terca. Even as a child I would not obey. I was “lazy.” Instead of ironing my younger brothers’ shirts or cleaning the cupboards, I would pass many hours studying, reading, painting, writing. Every bit of self-faith I’d painstakingly gathered took a beating daily. Nothing in my culture approved of me. Había agarrado malos pasos. Something was “wrong” with me. Estabá más allá de la tradición.
Here, you can see the unlearning happening. We are often taught to be seen and not heard or to do what we are told without question or reason but these ideologies are taking away our basic rights as human beings.
From a personal perspective, I remember being called lazy as well hence why it's difficult for me as an adult to rest now. A lot of these things are passed down genetically from our ancestors as a survival technique from things such as slavery. I too spent a lot of time reading things like the dictionary and writing pages and pages of my heart on paper.
But I didn’t leave all the parts of me: I kept the ground of my own being.
Here I sense that they're referring to the person that they truly are. They left the inflicted ideas and opinionated created versions of themselves at home to take their authenticity them.
find my own intrinsic nature buried under the personality that had been imposed on me.
"Under the personality that had been imposed on me" the author is yelling at me this week. I can tell that their family had an expectation of what they "should" be doing or "who they SHOULD". I refer to this as "shouldacouldawouldaland" and this is a space that none of us can exist in. The power of living outside of the norm is forever indescribable.
To this day I’m not sure where I found the strength to leave the source, the mother, disengage from my family
I felt this so very deeply. I moved away from home at 17 and I never looked back. Seeing as how many of the people in my family have never left the city that they were born in, I've often wondered how I ever had an inkling or desire to know that there was so much more outside of our community.
I have a vivid memory of an old photograph: I am six years old. I stand between my father and mother, head cocked to the right, the toes of my flat feet gripping the ground. I hold my mother’s hand.
I chuckled reading this because I feel like quite a few people will read this and think of their own picture that may be similar to this one.
Esos movimientos de rebeldía que tenemos en la sangre nosotros los mexicanos surgen como ríos desbocanados en mis venas. Y como mi raza que cada en cuando deja caer esa esclavitud de obedecer, de callarse y aceptar, en mi está la rebeldía encimita de mi carne. Debajo de mi humillada mirade está una cara insolente lista para explotar. Me costó muy caro mi rebeldía—acalambrada con desvelos y dudas, sintiéndome inútil, estúpida e impotente. Me entra una rabia cuando alguien—sea mi mamá, la Iglesia, la cultura de los anglos—me dice haz esto, haz eso sin considerar mis deseos. Repele. Hable pa’ ’tras. Fuí muy hocicona. Era indiferente a muchos valores de mi cultura. No me deje de los hombres. No fuí buena ni obediente. Pero he crecido. Ya no soló paso toda mi vida botando las costumbres y los valores de mi cultura que me traicionan. También recojo las costumbres que por el tiempo se han provado y las costumbres de respeto a las mujeres. But despite my growing intolerance, for this Chicana la guerra de independencia is a constant.
I am not fluent in Spanish by any means, but, I always feel this certain level of comfort when I'm reading selections in this course that are bilingual. It's truly satisfying.
Trust your hands know the work even if you do not know the work.
For me, I interpreted this as trusting in the universe to guide you even in the midst of darkness and confusion. Following our hearts and trusting our intuition is all that we can do as human beings.
You do not speak for the dead.The dead speak for you.
Here, the level of respect for our ancestors has been defined and we are reminded of them when it is stated that "the dead speak for you"
I felt this to my core.
I don’t love my country.
Same but in the sense of my safety being compromised daily.
maybe I look like a bitch, probably because that’s what I am.
She referred to herself as a bitch. It is my belief that society used the term "bitch" when referring to a woman that didn't follow the stereotypical rules of womanhood that society had placed on them. Here it seems as though she was accepting her fate to be a bitch because of her non-conformity.
reminds me of a woman looking directly at a man (and he doesn’t like it) of a woman fighting with her kids (but they need it) of a woman needing something real and swearing at the world (and the world doesn’t have it) reminds me of when I have to
It's interesting the examples given of a circumstance when a woman would be acting like a bitch. I also noticed that it was only a woman here that was being referred to as a bitch.
Yes, fusion is possiblebut only if things get hot enough –all else is temporary adhesion,patching up.
The fusing of things required complete alignment or the connection could not be fulfilled.
I am a welder.Not an alchemist.
I love that there was a distinction made between the two of these...a welder and an alchemist. This made me think of the book "The Alchemist" A welder connects things together through machinery but an alchemist connects things together in a way of purification. Welding is a much more material experience.
recalling all the sadness that hideswithin this place;i’ll do it a jillion timesfor me, for you, for all of us,
Our environment can always take us back to certain places and spaces in the blink of an eye.
mi abuelito
The terms "abuela, abuelita, and abuelito" bring so much comfort to my soul, even though I am not of Hispanic descent. I think these are such staple people in our lives but to have certain terms of endearment for them brings us back to giving them a certain level of respect and understanding.
i needed you then . . . identity . . . a sense of belonging i need you now.
"I needed you then...I need you now"....humans crave a desire for a sense of belonging.
the art form of our slums more meaningful & significant than Egypt’s finest hieroglyphics.
I LOVE how the author referred to the art forms as hieroglyphics because both told stories through symbols. What a great way to make a connection to this.
i think i heard her once and cried out of sadness and fear
Although she is considered the weeping lady, we all as humans have experienced crying out of sadness and fear and what that most vulnerable experience feels like. Being connected emotionally to something like the tale of La Llorona reminds us all of how human the human experience truly is.
lament of La Llorona–the weeping lady
La Llorona was one of the first tales that I learned about while living in San Antonio. It still haunts me but the tale's backstory is extremely intriguing.
Neighborhood that never saw a school-bus
I took this in a few different ways.
First, perhaps people lived on the outskirts of where the closest school district may have been so they were forced to get to school on their own. Second, perhaps school buses didn't go into certain neighborhoods because the children were not attending any kind of schooling.
Fiestas for any occasion
Hispanic culture always makes me feel so alive and the way that the culture is celebrated makes me feel connected to the roots so tenderly.
patriarchs with evidence of oppression
"Patriarchs" are elder males of the family. It's interesting that the feud and oppression are merely shown through the males of the family.
You live on, captive, in the lonely cellblocks of my mind.
From this alone, I could feel despair, regret, and the way that he is referred to the mind as a cellblock...whomever he is thinking of is infinitely existing inside of his soul. This description was deeply felt.
I made my first communion when I was eleven.
Although his father wasn't great, Max is still making progress while he's been there, even making his first communion. Max's dad seems to care about him, however, he didn't know how to go about caring for a child properly.
“Dad, what if I’m not really good?” He smiled. “That’s the first time you’ve ever called me Dad.” “You want me to call you Eddie?” “No, Dad works.” I nodded. “Look, Dad, maybe I’m not a good kid. It’s not like you know me.” “You’re soft,” he said. “I’m not.” I hated him for saying that.
No matter what the moment was about, I believe that this was a way of bonding for the two of them, especially since the boy called the man "dad" as he hadn't done that before.
My father was a drug dealer.
Bingo.
“Okay,” I nodded. I wondered if saving money was a rule. It didn’t sound like a rule. It was more like a suggestion. Never talk about what I do. That was a rule. So I started separating suggestions from rules.
The boy is having to analyze every single aspect of his parents words to understand what would get him into trouble or not. He always needed to be many steps ahead of them in order to remain in their good graces. This is an exhausting skill that many children are forced to learn.
My father came into the room with a package wrapped in brown paper. He handed the man the package and the man handed my father a wad of money. They went outside and talked, then the man left.
This is the illegal profession
“I’m a businessman.” “What kind of businessman?” I asked. “You’ll find out on your own,” he said. “And I don’t like you hanging around the house so much.”
Seems like a shady profession, especially because he didn't explicitly state what he was doing.
“I like women. Do you understand what I’m saying?”
His father was out in the streets, chasing women in the midst of being thrown into fatherhood overnight.
“Are you my mother?” he said. But then he said, “Do you get afraid when you’re alone at night?”
Deflecting in the same way that the dismissal comes up consistently in families that are POC.
But he went out at night a lot.
These are similar patterns shown by his mother.
. Make straight A’s at school. 2. Clean bathroom and kitchen once a week. 3. Go to church on Sundays and make my first communion. 4. Never go into his room. 5. Don’t lose the key to the house.
The boy has been hurt before by another adult human that should have been taking care of him. But instead of loving his parents, he's only had the pleasure of studying and researching them because he doesn't want to do anything that will disappoint them or call attention to his imperfections.
My mother had put a picture of herself in my suitcase. She was smiling and she looked like she was happy. But photographs lied. They always lied. I put the picture in my desk drawer.
Sweet boy. He cannot imagine his mom being that person because, to him, she seems so foreign in that way. He'd only known her in a struggling kind of way.
I’ll be gone for the day. I have some business.” He took out a twenty dollar bill. “Get yourself some food. If you walk down that way,” he pointed directly ahead of us, “and you walk up Mesa Street, you’ll find places.” He put a key in my hand. “Don’t lose it or I’ll kick your ass.” He started walking toward his pickup truck in the driveway. He turned back, “And don’t ever walk into my room. Not ever.”
His mother and father are extremely similar in their parenting in that they leave him with money to fend for himself but leave him alone for long periods of time. They also both ensure that he doesn't open the door for anyone while they are away.
“What’s your name?”
His mother shoved her child into the car of a person that didn't know her son's name.
“You’re going to church. I’ll let you skip this Sunday. But starting next Sunday, you’re going to church every week. Have you made your communion?”
Catholicism seems to be the traditional choice of practiced religion amongst Mexican-Americans.
“I want you to keep your room clean. And the kitchen, keep that clean too.”
First it was the bathroom and now it's also the kitchen. One should keep their room clean but common areas could and should be a communal chore.
“You can cry. But after the first week, no more crying. I don’t like people who cry about things.”
Toxic masculinity. The denial of feelings and setting a timeline for his grief to be finished. Humans are not capable of shaking things off the way a bird may do so (in a physical sense)
I noticed that my mother and the man who was my father were arguing. I couldn’t hear what they were saying. They were standing on the front porch of the red brick house. Finally, I heard my mother yelling “You sonofabitch, you have to fucking take him!” She put the suitcase on the steps of the porch and walked away.She opened the door to the car and looked at me. “You’re going to live with your father.” She sounded angry.
There was no autonomy given. His mom was struggling so deeply with his addiction that he needed to get rid of him.
I remember seeing a strange look on my aunt’s face.
Everyone in the family knew what was going on, even him as a child who may not have had all of the contexts.
“Go on and play with Jorge.”
Dismissal. It's a common thing within the culture of families that are POC. We are told to be seen and not heard and to not ask why because it was talking back. Often times we are sent away when questions don't want to be answered.
When I was about nine, things started to get weird. My mother started to disappear more and more. I would come home from school and the house would be empty. Sometimes she would be gone for more than a week. She would give me money to buy myself food or whatever I needed. She never gave me Mexican pesos. It was always American dollars. Sometimes when I woke up in the morning, there was no one home but me. And then sometimes she would spend days and days in bed. I would make her soup. Well, I didn’t actually make the soup. I just went to the store and bought it and opened the can and warmed it up. She didn’t eat it anyway. I didn’t know what was wrong. And I asked her, “Maybe you should go to a doctor?”
What a burden it was for the author to have to parent their parent by doing things like suggesting she needs to go to the doctor and take care of her. What he didn't realize at the time was that his mother was probably struggling with some kind of addiction.
he had this thing that I had to learn English
I love that they were made to learn English. I know that some families didn't want their children to learn the language.
We all have a specific language or tone indicator of when our humans (guardians and such) are being serious and when we need to be attentively listening. This seems to be a shared core memory for many.
I never really knew where my mother got the money for us to live.
I wonder what his mother did to make ends meet and if he ever saw his mother maybe leaving to go to work or doing gigs here and there.
joto
It's interesting that this term is part of his core memory, especially since it was said during his childhood.
There are things I still remember about growing up in Juárez: I remember the name of my school, Escuela Carlos Amaya. I remember my first grade teacher’s name, Laura Cedillos.
Remembering the name of a former teacher indicates the impact, whether it was good or bad, that their teacher had on them.
I can still taste those tears. Or perhaps I’m tasting yours, all the tears you’ve never released
He's extremely empathetic and is experiencing his own grief and the grief of his partner.
Virgen de San Juan on the wall
Her family is traditional Catholic.
I can still taste those tears. Or perhaps I’m tasting yours
He's extremely empathetic and is experiencing his own grief and the grief of his partner.
I know our daughter was your first death. But you won’t call it that. Never born, you said, only sixteen weeks. As if that wasn’t enough time to start thinking of names, to imagine how she’d have your water-straight hair and your dimples. “Socorro,” I’d breathed against your barely rounded belly. Before you told me, I’d dreamt of a little girl riding on my shoulders, a little girl with my mother’s name. I heard her laughter and felt her tiny hands in mine.
He's not only grieving the loss of his daughter, but he's also grieving that his partner isn't outwardly showing her emotions in the same way his heart is.
Grief sometimes has a way of bringing people together or pulling them apart.
I lost my mother when I was little, my brother soon after I met you, my grandparents after we married, some friends, and now, too, our daughter. None of your people have died.
Displayed here is resentment towards his partner because she hasn't had to experience the deep waves of grief and consistent loss of loved ones. He's grieving so many people and he's grieving them all at different stages.
I have deaths curled inside of me. Layered and limned with my grief.
To me, this is indicating that he is consumed and filled with agonizing grief that he hasn't dealt with and simply doesn't know how. In the same way that he had to swallow the grief of his former lover.
Men and women and children. Sad, angry, happy, lonely, lost, demanding. In English and Spanish and languages whose names I didn’t know
His mental state is struggling but he is somehow spiritually connected to the land and those that have gone over are presenting themselves to him.
I didn’t bring up the whispering again, even when it started to follow me everywhere.
He is having some internal struggles that will eventually spill over into his external life.
cenzontles
Mockingbirds.
I took to staring out an open window, even when winter came, even when the temperature dropped below freezing and there were hardly any birds in the sky.
Depression.
It was because of him that I learned to love you.
Our experiences are deeply rooted in us and we carry them with us forever.
Sexuality is fluid.
When fall came, I went back but he didn’t
Perhaps his family couldn't afford to send him back or he was inevitably being punished for what his family had found out.
The deep grief and sadness that he felt while having to suffer in silence must have been tumultuous.
I called him every day that summer, left messages with a woman who only spoke Spanish. He never called me back. Eventually, she started to hang up when she’d hear my voice, and then the number was disconnected.
It is clear that Abel's family had caught on to what was happening. Unfortunately, Abel had to suppress a part of himself to actually survive and physically stay alive. It's daunting.
“If they knew, my brother would fight over who’d put a bullet between my eyes.”
As someone that is queer, I've experienced this kind of worry and homophobia because it is real. having to love in secret and behind closed doors is such a painful thing but in a way extremely fulfilling.
The terror that both of these young men felt for wanting to be true to themselves is earth shattering.
I’ve never told you, but I loved a boy once. Loved him for his dark skin and the sadness of his eyes and for the way he dug his fingers into me when he held me.
The author knows and understands love without boundaries and labels.
I know that my mother, from the other world, would thank her for taking such good care of me.
Now his manic and obsessive ways are coming together; he is still grieving his mother. The woman seems to sense his soul and can see in his eyes that he needs the love that she is giving.
I sleep on the nights you’re home with me. The rest of the time, it’s an hour here, an hour there.
This gives a vibe of a deep codependency that he has on his partner.
When the whispers began,
The whispers are alluding to some mental health issues that he may be struggling with, hence why he goes on the night drives.
wooden crosses piled with plastic flowers and ribbons and beads. All the tattered and bright colors of someone’s grief.
Passing these on the road always leaves a pit feeling in my stomach, especially when the family presently there. It reminds me of the gratitude and appreciation for life that I have.
However, he seems to be also grieving in some way.
descansos,
Resting spot/stop
Most nights, when you’re at work, I go for long drives.
He is keeping himself busy until his lover returns. He needs her near him at all times.
Earth and sun and magic all at once.
A beautiful depiction of a valley and how it sits.
To love you is to live here
This could have a dual meaning in a physical and spiritual sense.
Physically: in the valley, experiencing life in a space with the person he loves.
Spiritually: loving someone means embracing where they're from, the culture, and how that has shaped them into the person you love.
nd the endless horizons and the wind and the heat and the sunsets and the rose-colored fog in the morning and the sugar cane burning and the river and driving to South Padre Island and the roasted corn and the shaved ice with syrup and El Pato’s and the botanas and the chorizo from San Manuel and the taquitos de trompo served with frijoles a la charra and baked potatoes and the cabrito al carbon on the other side of the border.
This is a very vivid way of painting the scene. You can feel the love, connection, and adoration that is shown here. I could almost see and taste every single word.
This description captured and connected to my inner child.
I followed you here. I’d follow you anywhere. My father said it wasn’t right.
The intro is seemingly setting the tone of mystery and romantic mischievous. One would also assume that this was a woman speaking because of the soft and tender tone.