clearly doesn't tear you apart anymore
the reality is clear to her, just like the object's cold behavior. she will try her bet to move on from that very moment
clearly doesn't tear you apart anymore
the reality is clear to her, just like the object's cold behavior. she will try her bet to move on from that very moment
I've tried
similar to a sigh of defeat. this is a battle she unfortunately lost but she put in a lot of effort to it. that's all that matters; she tried.
Thousand times
sounds like a fading cry for help. she is in despair
Anymore
the word stands bold on its own as the fact that the object isn't phased by anything hurts her the most
no secret that the both of us are running out of time
running out of time for what exactly? the speaker her fears for the future as she realizes the longer both of them wait, the less likely they are to actually so something.
make it out of that town where nothing ever happened?
"nothing" is the new everything in this scenario. the town is the place they both grew closer to one another. she likely got out of the town of golden memories to fend for herself; to let go of the memories. she wonders if the object had done the same for having no remorse to her apology at all
you're well
no matter how hard she tries, she will not be able to get over the object. the fact that even after everything she had gone through emotionally because of her conflicts with the object and she still wishes well for them, shows how deeply she cares.
typical of me to talk about myself, I'm sorry
she's still hurt from everything that has happened. this deeply rooted trauma is leading her to over rationalize all of her own actions and words. apologizes again from the loss of words
how are you?
shows that she still cares for the object. she wants to know about their well being.
don't matter, it clearly doesn't tear you apart anymore
suggests that the object has moved past the entire conflict. she realizes there might be zero chances to do anything anymore. she is torn from the conflict but the object isn't , which tears her even more
I'm sorry for breaking your heart
her actions were bad enough to break the object's heart. she wants to apologize for that. as much as she wants to fix everything, she most likely won't be able to do that. so she takes the blame of everything-including the heartbreak- to herself.
At least I can say that I've tried
the lack of response from the object got to the best of her. sh will likely never receive a response from the object ever again. hence she wants keep her fighting, knowing she tried. this would make her feel less guilty
you never seem to be home
likely not used literally. not being home could be the speaker referring to the fact that the object is not accepting her apology. is the effort one sided? or was the speaker's wrong doings so bad that it is unforgivable? likewise, the object has nothing to say or do.
I'm sorry for everything that I've done
shows the audience that the current relation between the subject and the object may have been led by something she did. she recognizes her mistakes and wants to apologize to the object for that
thousand times
exaggeration; in reality shows how badly she's trying to be on better terms with the object. she's desperate to solve their issues and is willing to anything for it.
Hello from the other side
the "other side" portrays the idea of something being between the subject and the object; like a barrier or obstacle. despite the obstacle, she is trying to reach out to the object
There's such a difference between usAnd a million miles
"million miles" used symbolically. it's an emotional distance rather than a physical one. kind of reminding of the phrase "so close yet so far away" in different words. the speaker is trying to fill in the emotional void.
forgotten how it felt before the world fell at our feet
times had been difficult for the subject after drifting away from the object. losing them made her feel the worst as they might have meant the world to her? this suggests her happy little life, or her "world" came crashing down after the separation
dreaming about who we used to beWhen we were younger and free
the past memories were the happier memories for the speaker as she was with the object, enjoying the little things in life. this shows the subject and the object had a great bond together, from which they somehow drifted apart.
Hello, can you hear me?
she's looking out for the object, in hopes of ensuring they are present. she wants to communicate with the object and tr to resolve the conflict
I ain't done much healing
she couldn't move on from it like she was told to. isn't it obvious that the trauma is deep? time isn't the only thing that should be put to consideration when trying to go past anything emotional
time's supposed to heal ya
based off of societal expectation to "move on" from the trauma. this is easier said than done. the "they" in question did not go through what the speaker had gone through, making the thoughts hard to be comprehended by them
To go over everything
"everything" could refer to things that went wrong. the word choice portrays the fact that conflict was something major
after all these years you'd like to meet
they lost contact between each other? an event had likely occurred between the subject and the object for this to happen.
Hello, it's me
the speaker is introducing themselves to the object, and to the audience
chalk and choke.
alliteration; refers to the dryness and being "choked up" on words due to lack of freedom. they've been held down for so long that now they've had enough.
many many mornings-after;
days during after protest. this is something significant to them and will be memorable.
non-cheering dark
darkness doesn't have joy typically. they will have to fend for themselves through the silence of the dark
strength to heal and enhance
heal from the history; what had happened to them and their ancestors.
sickenyou.
when one is sick, they are likely to have less strength. the oppressors have held them down for so long, they don't have control on themselves anymore
crumble you down
the oppressors; the ones who are responsible for them being unable to have freedom.
going to get
every action has an opposite reaction, and the speaker is mentally prepared for it
long blows
attacks? weapons? likewise, referring it to as "long" portrays the idea that considering what other had done to them, the revenge should be equally as epic. on the comparison scale hence, the opponent deserves to be destroyed
cultivation of victory
the speaker asks the group of people to fight for their independence; their "victory" against the ones who oppressed them. they will "cultivate" or work hard for achieving that goal
Where it is dry.
areas lacking moisture/liquid. probably suggests there shouldn't be any second thoughts to stand up for themselves, and no sympathy, or dampness should be felt for the ones who looked down upon them
wolves and coyotes of particular silences.
kind of contradictory since wolves and coyotes tend to howl during the night time, or when it's "dark". the silence is likely used to show the fact that previous generations of that group of people were bound to be quiet. the speaker wants the people right now to break the silence
hot paralysis.
the lack of ability to move around normally. with the mention of "hot" and "cold" near each other could suggest the idea of this group of people sticking together through the thick and thin. they might not have the freedom of expression yet, but they have themselves
vertigo cold.
"vertigo" here is loss of balance, likely looking down from a great height. the group of people being talked about here were looked down upon by others, and that left them all alone to suffer. hence the feeling of despair and loneliness expressed through the "cold"
Dark
likely suggests skin color. portrays the idea of an inferior race to prepare to stand up for themselves
I call for you cultivation
the speaker is asking the object, likely the audience to join in for improvement. they plan in prioritizing improvements of their strengths.
But I've got a blank space, babyAnd I'll write your name
the deed has been done; the name has been written and now she's ready to move on to a new "player". or should we say, a new victim of her love?
Don't say I didn't say, I didn't warn ya
repetition of the same line shows a form of gas-lighting instinct. she repeats to establish she won't be taking any blame for what ever happens to the person after this as "they were warned"
Don't say I didn't say, I didn't warn ya
she had mentioned how extreme he can get in a vague manner. the person should have seen this worst side of her coming. there is no turning back from this
Boys only want love if it's torture
the "players" are not a fan of anything that benefits them completely, as it takes away from the excitement. to make the person stay, there needs to be a painful, or even an unexpected turn to relationship that will keep them interested and wanting more
I'm a nightmare dressed like a daydream
paradox and major contrast that biulds the climax, or the bridg of the song. one can expect the worst from her; she is unpredictable. she is now holding still to the fact that she is ready to show her worst side to the person.
you'll come back each time you leave
she's likely trying to provide herself with hope of finding someone new. the "you" is all the people playing the game of love with her. since everyone meets her first time with innocence, she's generalizing them and knows more "players" are yet to come
drunk on jealousy
she knew this would happen but she was hurt by the fact that she couldn't make the person stay; envy is obvious
you second guessing like"Oh, my God, who is she?"
part of her gaming tactics to emotionally blackmail the person. the person has fallen out of love and has apparently found someone new
Rose garden filled with thorns
paradox; their relationship looks pretty on the outside but it is filled with toxicity
all the tables turn
trying to show she is the dominant one in the relationship; emotional blackmailing to prove yet again, "my way or highway"
oh, no Screaming, crying, perfect storms
negative connotation; she knows where this is leading and she is afraid of losing that person. the visual representation of her mind is similar to a storm
worst is yet to come,
foreshadows to the turning events of the relationship. building up a ideal personality didn't work out
what you wantBe that girl for a month
she wants to find out what type of girl is ideal for the person and build her personality according to that. the intention is to do anything to make the person stay
King, baby, I'm your Queen
royalty and unstoppable; born to be together
Stolen kisses, pretty lies
paradox; actions look picture perfect and pretty outside but there is a lot of manipulation going on in the inside
Cherry lips, crystal skies
visual representation of red; she is tempting and irresistible
I'll write your name
there is room for more people, or games in her heart
blank space,
there is room for more people in her heart. she is not alone but lonely
funny rumors fly
suggests she might hold a reputation, or even a title among other people globally. hence words about her fly around the more people recognize her
nasty scar
emotional trauma; the person will be scarred for life
breathless
likely in a negative way; she might do something that will leave them will to room to breath
way too far
the extreme; similar to her personality, there will not be a healthy boundaries for anything
we're young and we're reckless
rather referring to herself. her being reckless suggests she is rough in the game of love; she doesn't care
you love the game
getting played by her. the game here is love
I love the players
the players are the multiple lovers
I'm insane
not really a rumor, they all have experienced how bad she can be
long list of ex-lovers
many people have gone through the same treatment of hers
high was worth the pain
falling down to the flames as previously suggested. basically if it's over she'll throw them away to let go
when it's over
rather rhetorical; she knows they can't answer that for the consequences that await for them
down in flames
kind of like "my way or highway"; if things don't go her way, it'd be better off non-existent
gonna be forever
no remorse; it has to lat forever w/o second chances
bad guys good
paradox; likely means she can discipline them for a while which will later turn permanent
your passport and my hand
likely a metaphor. the passport could be actually for the life the person is about to witness with her, holding her hand
dying to see how this one ends
she is way too eager to see what happens later. all fri"end"ships have an ending.
friends
seems something positive right? wrong. the "friendship" will lead to a downfall.
I know you heard about me
her gut feeling is strong. the rumors about her g around so much that she firmly believes everyone knows a thing or two about her by now
read you like a magazine
simile; person being compared to a magazine. Taylor might be trying to get to know more about the person by "reading" through the person's belongings, actions, and posture.
New money, suit and tie
the person is new to her so obviously the person's belongings are foreign to her.
Love's a game, wanna play?
love is seen as something more than just emotions. it is a state one is more vulnerable to their partner. this kind of foreshadows to the idea that one of many plans of her may include playing with the person's feelings; like a game.
look like my next mistake
simile; looks being compared to a mistake? likely suggests Taylor had met someone like that person before, which turned out to be something she regrets.
look at that face
the face most likely held innocence inside out. the person likely has no idea what could possibly happen to them, and Taylor is in awe of exaggeration as she can already plan something mysterious
Magic, madness, heaven, sin
each word after the other are parallel to each other. this could mean she has both good and bad sides that are extreme.
incredible things
the tone could be considered uncanny. what type of incredible things are in the question? the word choice kind of keeps the actual surprise vague.
Nice to meet you, where you been?
starting off to a positive note. although she just got to meet the person, she wonders where the person has been all her life.
the net.
the shot was made; it went through the net so the effort put till the very last moment was worth it
perfectly
the shot was accurate and straightforward; perfect
orange blur
due to the fall and his distance from the ball his vision was blurry. the ball looked vague
swiveling back
turned his head quickly; rather violent. shows he was highly eager to see what was about to happen next after the shot
game he loved like a country
simile; shows the importance of the game (or even the shot) to the player. the moment was crucial for the player needless to say
headlong
unrestrained forward motion; he fell feeling proud and could hold his head up high for his shot
floor with a wild
fell rather dramatically as he hit the floor. the fall was major. contradictory motion as the higher the ball rose, the lower the player fell
inexplicably falling,
the fall had no explanation, but the imbalance was real for the player. more like a mental and emotional distress being let go. fingers crossed for the result afterwards
but losing his balance in the process,
major turning point.pause made to build anticipation among audience and readers. the shot was important for the player so he put his all to the shot
lay-up,
basketball terms
gently
opposite of "fury"; hoping that being gentle with the ball will help him reach the goal
fury,
rage; shows the action was during the turning point
explodes
rushes past them; the word choice shows how violently that action occurred
commits
pledge or bind; the ball went to the opponent's side? the ball might be "destined" to the commitment
guard finally lunges out
the peak has been reached; the mistake likely made?
single bounce hitting the hardwood
ball doesn't get the opportunity to hit the court floor. the game is getting more fast paced so no time to waste
without a dribble,
climax is going more fast paced; no time to waste that moment
brothers
friendly and humble tone to address each other; sportsmanship
tandem
one person is behind another. no chances to lose and no mercy is a single mistake is made
fanning out and filling
spreading apart and filling up the room; shows spreading out as racing down creates more tension in the audience. who will the ball go to next?
racing down the court
quick actions; they are going fast
like a coach’s drawing on the blackboard,
simile; slow motion play compared to slow writing motion. shows how slowly a climax is being anticipated
slow motion,
dragged down like the poem
develop in front of him
builds anxiousness; game develops just as the climax develops
gliding
dragging along; similar to the poem structure
catch sight of a high,
wanted to see what was happening at a certain height, but couldn't
nailed to the floor
suggesting he got pinned down to the floor, or he fell to the ground dramtically
stunned
surprised and shocked
flat-footed defender
foot arch lower than usual; awkward. the defender was likely rather clumsy in the player's eyes
scissoring
harsh connotation. shows how violently the player was passing through the others
underhand pass toward the other guard
basketball terms
and spinning around to throw a strike to the outlet who is already shoveling
present continuous tense being used to show the actions are rather immediate. the readers feel like they are a part of the audience. the sentence is slow going and dragged which further builds tension.
air like a cherished possession
simile. the ball is being compared to a precious belonging. this means the game itself is precious to them
orange leather
the ball being used to play
perfectly,
another exhibit of dragging sentences. opposite of "gangly" that shows how accurate and good the shot was.
center boxes out
basketball terms
gangly
awkwardness, odd movement. shows that the player in general is not skilled and is clumsy; struggles to execute a play.
doesn’t drop,
alliteration; creates a harsh sound and tone that builds up tension and despair for the players and the audience
helplessly
in despair. the commas around it makes the reader pause and that continues to build the tension.
hangs there
dragged down to the next line to build tension; similar to the tension in a game
kisses
intimacy; close and gentle. positive, making it contradictory to the previous words
hook shot
negative connotation; violent actions