Iperceivedinthismomentthatwhenthewhitemanturnstyrantitishisownfreedomthathedestroys.Hebecomesasortofhollow,posingdummy,theconventionalizedfigureofasahib.Foritistheconditionofhisrulethatheshallspendhislifeintryingtoimpressthe"natives,"andsoineverycrisishehasgottodowhatthe"natives"expectofhim
This reminds me of "The White Man's Burden" in how Orwell views his position of authority as a burden that he doesn't want to bear, but must. The idea that native people clearly look up to him as he has the superior technology and intelligence to solve problems that they cannot.