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  1. Mar 2021
    1. Kalle Oskari Mattila, a Finnish writer living in New York City, recently completed a memoir.

      References:

      Baym, N. (2010). Communities and networks. Personal Connections in the Digital Age, 72-97.

      Keipi, T., Oksanen, A., & Räsänen, P. (2015). Who prefers anonymous self-expression online? A Survey-based study of Finns Aged 15–30 years. Information, Communication & Society, 18(6), 717-732. doi:10.1080/1369118x.2014.991342

      Noble, S. (2018). Searching for protections from search engines. In Algorithms of Oppression: How Search Engines Reinforce Racism (pp. 121–133). New York University Press.

    2. I realized no one wanted to message with a boy in his early adolescence, but many were clamoring to chat with an attractive woman. And that’s where Pamela came in. To interest fellow gamers, I needed to become a woman.

      Kalle is realizing because of the "cyberspace" he is in, he can choose to be whoever he wants. Anonymity is something that he would like to achieve because he does not feel a sense of belonging. This is easier to achieve on a game site than it is on social media. This is due to the fact that he does not have to verify his identity. According to a study done, teenagers who have low self-esteem and less friends offline are more likely to go online anonymously (Keipi, Oksanen, & Räsänen, 2015). This study is extremely interesting and is closely related to course materials.

    3. I found amateur photos of naked women online to send to the men and patched up whatever incongruities emerged:

      By using pornographic content, Kalle is increasing the problem of the internet that never forgets (Noble, 2018). The more people who interact with an image online, the most likely it is to stay at the top of searches on Google. This is a violation of privacy of the individuals in the photos.

    4. My masquerade went on for months. I became a master of giving men what they wanted. The sheer number of interested men meant I could be picky, too.

      When thinking about Kalle catfishing men for months, I cannot help but think about how many men he may have fooled. The picture above is results from a survey done in 2018 about how many people are catfished online. These statistics show that it may be more common than people think and the dangers of anonymity online.

    5. As I lay alone in the dark, I felt the same loneliness Jussi must have been feeling. I wish there had been a way for me to tell him what his online companionship meant to me: That he had made it possible for me to be myself in a strictly gendered world of Pamela Andersons and James Bonds. That he had helped me believe I was funny, interesting and worth talking to. That he had, if only by his presence, made it possible for me to begin to process my sexuality.

      Kalle used the online chatting as a way to express himself. He desired to find a community of individuals who are willing to talk and support him. According to Baym (2010), community was built on shared space, practice, resources, identities, and interpersonal relationships. However, the boy cannot truly have a community of support if he is catfishing the individuals he is chatting with. Jussi gave him a sense of community by creating shared space and resources.

    6. I could never become what he imagined me to be. And something else dawned on me as well: I was starting to realize I might be gay, and that’s why I was different from everyone else.

      Kalle viewing the chatrooms as cyberspace also allows him to step into the lens that identity is fluid. People in the early 90s thought that the internet was a way you could discover yourself and identify however you wished (Lesson 6). He is now understanding the consequences of pretending to be someone you are not.

    7. I imagined him sitting on the bus on his way home to the suburbs, hoping there’d been a mix-up: I’d either forgotten the day or mistaken the time. I imagined him logging on to the chat room and scanning the list for my user name, only to come up empty: I’d blocked him to make sure I didn’t have to read through any excruciating messages.

      https://www.cybersmile.org/what-we-do/advice-help/catfishing#:~:text=As%20well%20as%20the%20emotional,come%20about%20because%20of%20catfishing.

      The link above is a website full of information about Catfishing, including the harmful effects of being catfished. I imagine that Jussi emotionally hurt, embarrassed, and anxious about where the relationship went wrong. In the article, it also discusses that people may catfish for including insecurities and sexual exploration. Both of these things were reasons for Kalle to catfish.

    8. “The picture doesn’t have a face because I don’t want my husband to find out I’ve been posting my photos online”

      https://youtu.be/YyM4zF8mi8M Kalle using the pictures of women from online is risky because the men could look up the images on Google, like the video states. The video also provides useful tips for catching a catfish.

    9. I didn’t want to disappoint him. So I agreed. We set a date for 7 p.m. a week later. We agreed to meet on a street corner in the center of Helsinki, mere blocks from where I lived. I hoped we would recognize each other simply because we had been talking for so long and had such a strong connection.

      If Kalle did not want to disappoint him, then I do not understand why he would agree to a date that he knew he would have to cancel.

    10. I liked this online seduction much more than I imagined I would. I told myself it was the danger: of getting caught, of fooling the men, of breaking rules. Whatever the case, I’d become addicted. Every day after school, I would continue my quest for the perfect man.

      One of the big issues with Kalle catfishing men is that the men he is talking to are real men who are expressing themselves, assuming they are not also catfishes. Kalle is building a connection with true to themselves individuals, but he is not being authentic to them. This could create an emotional attachment, knowing that it could not go further than online chatting.

    11. By pretending to be someone I was not, I had shown him my true self, one I had been too afraid to reveal to anyone else. And ultimately, I was able to embrace that true self, an acceptance that would allow me — years later, as an adult in New York City — to find real love as a real person.

      https://www.hrc.org/news/5-things-you-can-do-today-to-support-lgbtq-youth

      Although it is wrong to catfish people online, it allowed Kalle to express and find himself. Many individuals in the LGBTQ+ community cannot fully express themselves because of the lack of understanding and support from friends and family. The link I have attached are things YOU can do to support LGBTQ+, so that kids do not have to do what Kalle did.

    12. I took a sip of my Kool-Aid. “Six-pack?” I asked. Now was the time for me to be demanding; otherwise it wouldn’t seem real. Having a six-pack was a thing I’d heard was desirable. “Not really,” he said. “But I have one in the fridge.” I laughed. Maybe this guy was nice.

      I think that Kalle used his experience online to find out what characteristics he would and would not want in a partner. In a place where the LGBTQ+ community is not always supported; this may have been his only way to explore his feelings and likes/dislikes. He was only able to do this comfortably, due to anonymity.

    13. I was married with two children. I had a rich husband who couldn’t satisfy me sexually. We lived in an enormous glass house with a private beach in one of Helsinki’s most exclusive suburbs. And since I was a bored, lonely housewife, I always needed someone to come over and take care of things.

      I would think that Kalle would want the men to think highly of him and not put himself in a bad light. If I was in Kalle's position (I would never be), I would make myself seem very trustworthy and noble.

    14. “Why do you ask?” I typed. “Is it tight?” he asked. I didn’t entirely understand what he meant, but I knew it was dirty. I waited a moment and then wrote, “Yes.” “Nice,” he replied. “Age?” “35,” I wrote. “But I love younger men.” “That’s hot. What do you look like?”

      The scary part about this conversation is that Jarkko25 is not aware that he is talking to a child-aged boy.

      I thought it was interesting that Kalle said, "But I love younger men" before he even knew Jarkko25's age.

    15. Using Pamela’s age and some of her defining features to create my new persona, I logged in to the chat room as “CharlottaDD35.” Then the messages came pouring in

      It is crazy to me how easy it was for this boy to become someone else. Catfishing is something that has always made me very aware of who I talk to online. I have all of my social media accounts set to private, so I am able to control who follows me. If I do not know someone, I do not let them follow me.

      Catfishing is pretending to be someone you are not online, through using other's pictures and lying about the traits a person possesses.

    16. My nonsexual feelings for Pamela were just one of the things that made me an outcast. Another was that I preferred computers to people. And so, as a child who loved playing board games, I soon discovered I could play them online with strangers on a Finnish gaming website.

      When the Web first became popular, many people viewed the space as "cyberspace." This meant that the internet was a completely separate space from reality where differences did not matter. This young boy, Kalle, seems to view computers and online games as cyberspace. He felt like "an outcast" in real life, so cyberspace could be a place he could be whoever he wanted.

    17. I quickly Googled “Pamela+Anderson” and described what I saw in the search results: “179 cm, blonde. I like to wear heels and tight dresses.”

      Google is a search engine used by most people daily to find answers to almost any question someone may have. Search engines have been around for a long time, but Google became a main one between 2002-2008 (Lesson 8). Information nowadays is extremely easy to find online with an easy search.

    18. Except it seemed no one else was there to play those games seriously. The screen was a constant stream of dirty messages.

      People need to be aware that what they do online can follow them in the future. The internet never forgets (Noble, 2018). This means that the dirty messages being posted in the chat could be saved in a computer somewhere and held against someone. Noble (2018) discusses the consequences of people's past online sexual content resurfacing. Many people lose their jobs over this.