I generally wake up with a sense of optimism that slowly withers and dies in me throughout the day, to the point that by the time I go to bed each night, I’ve probably given up on myself as well as most of humanit
This is an interesting point. It is very symbolic that you feel this sense of giving up right at the time where its time to go to bed and recharge - almost as if we were built for this lol.
I know this is hardly your main point, but it kind of decenters the human by reminding us of our natural rhythms of wakefulness and fatigue.