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  1. May 2025
    1. For the lesbian of color, the ultimate rebellion she can make against her native culture is through her sexual behavior.

      I love this. Also I sometimes feel like generally that being an individual who comes from several backgrounds that are often impacted more so (In America) by more struggles financially and socially are overlooked. Like when an individual is able to make it to a high achievement of a position career wise that sometimes its just seems as "badges" rather, but perhaps a lot of people just don't understand what it takes to surmount the struggles. Some individuals will crack it up to be "DEI hire", which is highly disrespectful and such a slap in the face to someone who is just as capable if not better despite the person being some form of "against the grain" whether it be sexuality, gender, race, religion, etc.

    2. What we are suffering from is an absolute despot duality that says we are able to be only one or the other. It claims that human nature is limited and cannot evolve into something better. But I, like other queer people, am two in one body, both male and female. I am the embodiment of the hieros gamos: the coming together of opposite qualities within.

      This hits super home for me. I am as well someone of this group and also feel that gender is of the same nature. I also really appreciate the socio-cultural background by how some Chicano cultures viewed genders, trans, and intersex individuals.

    3. The culture expects women to show greater acceptance of, and commitment to, the value system than men. The culture and the Church insist that women are subservient to males. If a woman rebels she is a mujer mala. If a woman doesn’t renounce herself in favor of the male, she is selfish. If a woman remains a virgen until she marries, she is a good woman.

      I also personally relate to this because I as well am part Mexican and grew up in a Hispanic household where the social expectations were not this blunt as the narrator, but more subtle and sly within the household I grew up in. These expectations that were subtly implied often came from my stepmother who had way more devout Hispanic parents that often high preached these ideals as well - as they converted from Catholicism to non-denominational.

    4. At a very early age I had a strong sense of who I was and what I was about and what was fair. I had a stubborn will. It tried constantly to mobilize my soul under my own regime, to live life on my own terms no matter how unsuitable to others they were. Terca. Even as a child I would not obey. I was “lazy.” Instead of ironing my younger brothers’ shirts or cleaning the cupboards, I would pass many hours studying, reading, painting, writing. Every bit of self-faith I’d painstakingly gathered took a beating daily. Nothing in my culture approved of me. Había agarrado malos pasos. Something was “wrong” with me. Estabá más allá de la tradición.

      I personally can relate to the narrator, especially on the grounds of working towards something else that separated myself from my family's own conventional way of going about things, however, there is also a burning drive that all of that will and hard work will breakthrough once you have an opportunity to find your own path. I used the outlet of becoming a better person and outlook or future to leave an abusive home and a toxic household.

  2. Apr 2025
    1. maybe I look like a bitch, probably      because that’s what       I am.

      A powerful statement at the end by the author. She finally takes the title proudly and its significance.

    2. reminds me of a woman looking            directly at a man               (and he doesn’t like it)           of a woman fighting with her kids               (but they need it)           of a woman needing something real              and swearing at the world               (and the world doesn’t have it)

      I really love how the script is flipped for this word. The narrator switches it to her being the one who says these things. The one who takes power. Where the word in origin is usually a derogatory, negative word used against women.

    3. I am the welder.I understand the capacity of heatto change the shape of things.I am suited to workwithin the realm of sparksout of control.

      A ah-ha moment of the poem where there is a great understanding of the narrator. The narrator becomes aware of the power and influence in an inspirational way.

    4. Yes, fusion is possiblebut only if things get hot enough –all else is temporary adhesion,patching up.

      We can all melt together and become something stronger and new, but not without a massive push for change. A massive force or energy, otherwise it's not enough to invoke permanency. This also makes me think of chemistry with bonds and the electron cloud. This is highly similar to that of the characteristics of valence electrons which is also similar to welding metaphors since it's explained by chemistry!

    5. We plead to each other,we all come from the same rockwe all come from the same rock

      Mmmm I can most definitely see this as a unifying metaphor for all of us human beings. We are all human. We are all of the same species and this is just an interpretation from a welding perspective.

    6. I am a welder.Not an alchemist.I am interested in the blendof common elements to makea common thing.

      I think this is a beautiful blend or summary of how a welder sees their self.

    1. I remember watching television with my cousins. I remember my mom telling me that she had to leave and that she would be back in the morning. I remember seeing a strange look on my aunt’s face. I slept on a bed with my cousin Rafie. I was afraid my mother wasn’t coming back. But she did come back. She had a suitcase with her. The suitcase was full of all my clothes.  I looked at her and she said, “I’m going to take you to meet your father.”  I didn’t say anything. Maybe I did. I don’t remember. I was scared. That’s what I remember.

      This breaks my heart :(

    2. But when I’d come home, I was alone. I hated that. I would read books. And I would watch television. I liked the telenovelas. When I got tired of telenovelas, I would draw. I liked to draw. Sometimes I think books and telenovelas and drawing saved my life.

      Negligent parenting and this also makes me think of Matilda when they parents wouldn't give a care in the world to leave her home alone at any age.

    3. She gave me one of her looks. I didn’t like those looks. It was her way of slapping me. We lived that way for about a year, her slapping me with her looks.

      I feel bad for the kid. They are trying to care and look after their mom, but they seem to take it as criticism?....I can relate as well . This seems to be a turning point for the son where he starts to take on more adult-like or parent the parent situationships.

    4. “We have food and a house and—”  She stopped me cold in the middle of my sentence. “What does a boy know about money?

      I find it a bit odd that the mom is getting mad at him for appreciating the things they do have, but I could see it being because she wants better for them or because how she was brought up was much better than want they're experiencing at the moment.

    5. I was sad sometimes, but not sad, sad, sad. Just sad in a normal way, I think.

      This will definitely be an emotional patch to work through when he gets older...it could turn depressive.

    6. She had this thing that I had to learn English, even though I lived in Juárez. She said I was a U.S. citizen and that I should know the language of my country. But Juárez was the only country I knew—and it was the only country I cared about. She’d bring me to El Paso sometimes and I’d play with my cousins and we spoke both languages, English and Spanish. But El Paso wasn’t Juárez and it wasn’t mine and I always felt that I was just a visitor there.

      I tend to hear this the other way around with people who live in America and have immigrant parents or grandparents. We are often taught the language from which our immigrants relatives came from to stay connected with our culture whereas in this context it's a bit of that but also because in the U.S. it's somewhat more of a necessity.

    7. Nunca quiero que me preguntes de tu papá.

      I believe (with my little knowledge of Spanish) this translates to I never want questions about your papa (dad).

    8. When the whispers began, I tried to outrun them, first on the treadmill then at the university track. I tried weights. I tried punching the bag in the garage. I tried jerking off. I tried drinking. At home and then at the bar down the street. And then at the icehouse on the far edge of town.

      Trying to not feel what is being deeply felt. They need something to cope and nothing seems to work.

    9. looping over and over again.

      Again this line is a grieving emotion where it's a bit depressive because things feel like they're going in motion but you're still working through a loss.

    10. All the tattered and bright colors of someone’s grief.

      All of the previous lines and words of details from the world in which the person is experiencing are very persistent with how a grieving person would or could be thinking. When going through this, it feels like the whole world is still going on whereas what you're grieving is something that wraps your emotions and mind.

    11. Most nights, when you’re at work, I go for long drives. On the freeways where all the lights blur, the access roads when I want to see things pass by more slowly. Interstates, state roads, county roads, farm-to-market roads, connecting one town to the next. Some towns hardly more than a city-limits sign, two houses, and a gas station. Some nights I turn onto caliche roads, counting the lights of trailer parks, surprised suddenly by what look like little houses with parking lots and too many cars. Some of them bars without permits, most of them brothels. I sit at truck-stop diners, drinking cup after cup of coffee. I have something sweet. Pancakes. Or pie. Or cake. Then more coffee until I can bear to go back out again and devour the miles. Windows open and the road screaming past. Everywhere I see roadside descansos, wooden crosses piled with plastic flowers and ribbons and beads.

      This is such an immaculate and beautiful text! The way I can perfectly visualize and relate to this feeling and moment of this type of situation is crazy. I also feel like the way its written is synonymous with someone who is also staying up late and really letting what's on their mind free flow into words of great imagery.

    12. Memory brought you here. Brought us here. Your history is here. Your family. Your parents and grandparents and great-grandparents.

      This text hits personally. It reminds me of all of the ethnicities that I am and always makes me proud of my roots. Although all of my grandparents are immigrants they are all from different stretches of land: Russia, the Philippines, and Mexico.

    13. I followed you here. I’d follow you anywhere. My father said it wasn’t right. That we had it backward. That it was the woman who was supposed to follow her husband. But that never mattered to me. I’d never do anything that would keep us apart. What I am is yours. I am yours even when you are away. When I am alone. I am yours for as long as I breathe and even after. I am yours for as long as you want me.

      This is a very significant vow that actually feels equal. When it comes to love there is a balance for one another.

    1. I look at myself.I watch my brothers.I shed teads of sorrow.I sow seeds of hate.I withdraw to the safety within thecircle of life–                MY OWN PEOPLE.

      It's shown in this light that he decides to turn to the safety and numbing American identity. Also not without great remorse and acknowledgement of the betrayal.

    2. Yes,I have come a long way to nowhere,Unwillingly dragged by thatmonstrous, technicalindustrial giant called                Progressand Anglo success. . . .

      This specific "side-eye" mention pulls me back to Jovita Gonzalez's writing where she was also echoing the change that American immigrants brought where they brought on more successful and robust businesses that flourished the economy, but at the cost of it being their success and not one that was shared with the Texan-Mexican alike that already had established practices and businesses there.

    3. of American social neurosis,

      I had to look up the definition of Neurosis since I wasn't too sure what the definition exactly meant by I had an idea to what the context of the text was trying to say. Neurosis is an outdated term to describe a myriad of mental illnesses. The overarching meaning of this specific paragraph is to paint the choice of basically persevere with the spirit and resilience of the Mexican spirit or to "betray" that and assimilate and fall in line to the emptiness and numbing reality of American social and cultural life.

    4. I am Joaquín,lost in a world of confusion,caught up in the whirl of a        gringo society,confused by the rules,scorned by attitudes,suppressed by manipulation,and destroyed by modern society.My fathershave lost the economic battleand wonthe struggle of cultural survival

      This similar theme kind of reminds me of one of my songs by Green Day which is "Jesus of Suburbia". While the struggles are different I would argue the attitude, angst, and context of cultural and political scenes share a similar ground in that sense...

    5. I SHALL ENDURE!                I WILL ENDURE!

      This comment really resonates with me because it reminds me of the "Si se puede!" line of the UFW which were also a large movement of Chicano culture and one I can especially relate to since I had family who were directly involved with this during the Delano Drape Strike.