existential isolation - evocative description - See David Loy's description of the same thing as the fear of our own inherent emptiness

quote - existential isolation - Nic Higham

• .But this other kind of anxiety was more like
  • a quiet, unintelligible terror,
  • a distant alarm bell,
  • an uncaused danger.
• It seemed more real and fundamental than any passing concern.
• Apparently arising from my innermost core,
  • existential anxiety was a lurking, menacing mythical figure.
• It hid in the shadows of my very Being,
  • coming at me from
    • everywhere and
    • nowhere.
• It wasn’t an entity but an inescapable mood
  • that cunningly evaded -reason and
    • remedy.
• It was
  • a constant undercurrent,
  • an impending nothingness and hollowness,
  • a strange intimacy with an enticing void,
• the cost of having a thumping heart and a free spirit.

reference - Ernest Becker - Denial of Death - https://jonudell.info/h/facet/?max=100&expanded=true&user=stopresetgo&exactTagSearch=true&any=denial+of+death - The Birth and Death of Meaning - https://jonudell.info/h/facet/?max=100&expanded=true&user=stopresetgo&exactTagSearch=true&any=the+birth+and+death+of+meaning - David Loy - https://jonudell.info/h/facet/?max=100&expanded=true&user=stopresetgo&exactTagSearch=true&any=david%2Bloy