we justify our capitalistic urge to throw money into the defense sector by justifying it from history as a necessity for our national security. Mainly, its to keep companies like Lockheed and Boeing afloat.

the US Government can be all cheap and stuff when it comes to the social programs, but when it comes to military expenditure, a trillion dollars is game.

a general feeling of discomfort, illness, or uneasiness whose exact cause is difficult to identify.

involving, caused by, or of the nature of a physical or mental disease

consistently brought up

OH YEAH that was the word for naming species

they have a discrete joy in naming things

they exanded to now working with many more types of animals

seems like the narrator is particularly fond of the classification of different species. does this expand beyond butterflies

a person who studies or collects butterflies and moths

it is interesting that the narrator makes this connection. I am not too sure how a lack of confidence is reflected by collecting objects.

what gives us the right to just kill something because you want to collect it

so the withdrawal was not really organic, but derived from not having access to the butterfly

this is a very important part of the article. they did not stop killing the butterflies because of the inhumane aspect of it, but because they felt weird drawing so much pleasure from the killing of the butterflies.

they felt so guilty about their actions that they decided to admire the butterflies instead of just murdering them

FAO Schwarz is an American toy brand and store.[1] The company is known for its high-end toys, life-sized stuffed animals, interactive experiences, brand integrations, and games.[2] FAO Schwarz is the oldest toy store in the United States, first opening its doors in 1862 in Baltimore before moving to New York City, where it has moved between several locations since 1870. The dance-on piano, made famous by the 1988 Tom Hanks film Big, brought national attention to the brand. FAO filed for bankruptcy twice in 2003 before temporarily shuttering the Fifth Avenue store in January 2004. In May 2009, Toys "R" Us Inc. acquired FAO Schwarz, but in 2015, it permanently closed the Fifth Avenue store. The brand was then acquired by ThreeSixty Group, who opened the new FAO Schwarz store at 30 Rockefeller Plaza in November 2018. In 2019 locations in Beijing,[3] London[4] and Dublin[5] were opened.

he speaks about butterfly metamorphis almost as if it was a religion

a person who believes that nothing is known or can be known of the existence or nature of God or of anything beyond material phenomena; a person who claims neither faith nor disbelief in God.

the word being is capitalized

the author is almost obsessed with the creation and birth of insects

the word being is capitalized

they almost thrive and feel pride of the struggling and pain of the animal. that is pretty screwed up in my book.

So the narrator was just incredibly selfish

Lepidopterology, is a branch of entomology concerning the scientific study of moths and the three superfamilies of butterflies. Someone who studies in this field is a lepidopterist or, archaically, an aurelian.

addressing the shame that the reader was waiting to settle in

This story goes into quite gory and descriptive detail of the killling of such an innocent and beautiful creature?

this story so far seems to be shifting into the history of ways to kill a butterfly, but we are given literally no context on why the narrator wishes to kill a butterfly or much knowledge about the setting overall.

pro·di·gious | prəˈdijəs | adjective 1 remarkably or impressively great in extent, size, or degree: the stove consumed a prodigious amount of fuel.

weirdly high levels of details used when describing facets of the story.

the author ominously brings up the killing jar, as if it was obvious when picking butterflies that you must killl them afterwards.

pro·di·gious | prəˈdijəs | adjective 1 remarkably or impressively great in extent, size, or degree: the stove consumed a prodigious amount of fuel.

These examples imply that the setting is somewhere in Europe region maybe due to the specification of European cabbage.

The racket is thicker because the older player is more experienced and is therefore implied to have larger hands. This implies that this portion of the story was written from the setting of someone of an age that was not fully developed

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