I wish this story were different. I wish it were more civilized. I wish itshowed me in a better light, if not happier, then at least more active, lesshesitant, less distracted by trivia. I wish it had more shape. I wish it wereabout love, or about sudden realizations important to one's life, or even aboutsunsets, birds, rainstorms, or snow.
Anaphora of "I wish", kind of like asking a genie for three wishes, a childlike wonder. Her constant reflection on what happens in her life shows her control over the retelling of what is being told us in the story -- shows her power as the narrator.